L U A H A N

My friend :')

I said ,

Kadang-kadang lebih baik memendam perasaan lalu mengagumi dari jauh.
Daripada mengungkap perasaan namun jarak semakin jauh . (This quotes i took from what novel i don't remember)

Then she answered me ,

but sometimes, there's a moment you need to confess it before it is too late. because hearts are often broken by words that are left unspoken.

I replied her ,

Every person has their own ability n way to confess . either they choose to confess or love silently as the way they are . If they choose to confess they will happy at ending or broken. If they choose to love silently okay that's more hurting . And there's no happy ending for the one who choose love silently . But people say, a person who love silently has do many sacrifice for the person they love . Sacrifice that make the person they love happy . That is what people who love silently want to achieve . They want the person they love happy even not with them. But a confess love also the same . They do sacrifice . But not too much as love silently :')

Then , u know what ? She replied more longer than me . And I , PAP ! I'm speechless . Her words and sentences was too deep down into my heart until it shatters.

Her replied ,

and there it goes. its true that when we love silently, we do sacrifie and happy. its true that when we love silently we can mantain our friendship. its true that when we love silently, we can avoid ourself from being ashamed after friendzone. and one thing for sure, when we love silently we can live happily as we feel no rejection from the people we love. but, what if when we love silently, we hide the feeling for months for years and finally ended up seeing the person we love happy with other person??how do you feel that time??how can u move on after months and years loving someone silently and realize that your love and sacrifie for all these time being wasted just like that??how can you deal with it??you never have that chance to tell him that you actually love him, take care of him, pray for him and even cry for him. u feel so dejected and useless. unspoken words, unexpressed feelings, that u keep for months and years make u sick, make u hurt. because when u love silently, you care more than they deserve. he treated you as friend only but you think he treated you more than that because you dont know what's actually his feeling on you. and that time how u wish u can turn back time so that u can confess ur feelings earlier. its okay being rejected at the early stage as you can move on easier rather than keeping it for months and years and ended up broken and also cant move on because u alrealdy love too much, care too much, and also hurt too much :')

Yes , i pity her . I pity myself . We can go through any challenging together easily . But when it comes to love, heart , feeling . She can't controlled herself . So do i . When she feeling down , i went to her n gave a motivation that can help her to wake up again as other teenagers. Same goes to me . When I am feeling down , I can't solve my problem . I can't gave any motivation to myself . I can't . I fail . But she . She was there for me. She make me smile again . She asked me to wake up and stay strong as before . When i gave a speech about love , then she . She gave more ! More deepen. until she cried . I cried . But did we give up ? Nope . She was an unpredictable girl . I'm proud for having a friend like her . Thank you , dear you.

Sincerely ,
From your Cikduckling ✔💯💕