Vipers Poison Handbook: Understanding The Story

Understand M.S.'s Depression

M.S. uses her cockiness and cool-girl-attitude to act as a mask for her actual feelings. She hates it when people feel bad for her. It makes her feel weak and soft, she wanted them to feel bad and try to help when there was still time to save her from her parents, but when they try to now, she just wants to rip their throats out. She tries to cut herself, and make them stay, but they sew themselves back up. Stabbing her arm in frustration most Times, she would be forced to kill. Quenching her thirst for blood. She used to make herself bleed when she was younger, she had almost a fetish about blood, she would cover her hands in blood and fantasize about ripping the skin from someone's body. Those someone's bodies, were her parents. She wanted them to feel every single pain she had when they hurt her.

Now, like I said in the beginning of this, she hides it with a plastic smile, not telling Sakura everything she feels, only tiny hints, because she fears that Sakura will turn just like her, and injure herself, Causing M.S. to go deeper into depression. Not wanting this, she keeps it bottled up inside. Most of it.

The hallucinations she has of her dead parents in the mirrors are a curse she got by accidentally engaging in a demonic ritual. Yeah Mr. Deville could reverse it, but he won't until she marries him. So she's stuck with seeing her parents in the mirrors at night, telling her she's worthless, a shame, a disappointment, hideous, dirty, killer, monster, demon, wicked, completely useless and a terrible daughter. Therefore, causing her to break the mirrors in a fit of rage and terror. Usually once she breaks the mirrors, they come out of the shards and continue to insult her and put her down for nothing. Finally crying out in insanity, Sakura comes to her aid and comforts her. Making sure she's calm enough to go back to bed, she lulls her to a clam state with her voice. Sometimes singing, sometimes talking.

Her initial mental illnesses aren't as violet as she says they are because she forces most of the symptoms inside, which is a very hard task for her, she would very much love to shoot every single person she lays eyes on, she'd love to slice her arms, thighs, and wrists up, she'd love to cry herself to sleep every night and punch walls, she'd love to break the bones in her hands and arms just for the fun of it, she'd love to bleed out until she's gone. But she also doesn't want to leave Sakura and hurt her. She loves Sakura and wants nothing more than to keep her happy. And keeping her happy and safe means living longer for her. Pushing on with battle wounds, she fights for Sakura.