My Best Friend and I

Part 1

Leigh-Ann P.O.V
Hi my name is Leigh-Ann Pinnock, I am part of one of the biggest girl band ever. I am in the band called Little Mix. My best friends are Jade Thirlwall, Jesy Nelson, and Perrie Edwards. I have a big secret that will most likely destroy my life and the life of my best friend. I am deeply and madly in love it my best friend, her name is Jade Thirlwall. Now most people would say that i should confess me feeling for her. I can't though, she is in a relationship with a guy named Luke ( I know that she isn't really dating him but i don't want to ruin his name. ) It kills me every time that i see him with her. I want to be the one to hold her. I want to be the one to kiss her everyday. One day i might just blow and tell her. The sad thing i she has been blowing me off for him. Every time we try to hang out Luke calls and she forgets about me. When we do hang out Luke comes and she forgets about me. Im just sad about everything.( in this time period they are still recording The Glory Days album) Today we are supposed to hang out today. I doubt that we will actually be able to hang out. She will most likely ditch me out for Luke. Now don't get me wrong I don't hate Luke i just hate how he is the on that gets to date Jade. My alarm rings which means that its time to go to Jades house. Last night i bought some biscuits and ice cream ( I don't come from England i'm just used to calling it biscuits and if you don't know what biscuits are they are cookies.) I go to my car and drive over there. It takes me about ten minutes to go over to Jades house. I use the spare key to open the door. She gave me one last year on Christmas telling me that her door is opened for me anytime. The thing is I haven't been welcomed in her house. That left when she started dating Luke. I just hope that today is so much different from the past ones. I go open the door and hear noises upstairs. I thought that it was just Jade preparing for me. I walked into the room looking down at he bag i had " Jades I had some ic- oh my gosh" There my secret crush and her boyfriend half naked in front of me then her boyfriend spoke up" don't you know how to knock" " i do but my and Jade were supposed to hang out but i see that she is busy i'll just leave" I dropped the bag and was about to close the door when I opened once again " oh and jade here is your key i wont be needing it anymore." With that I slammed the door and didn't look back. I went inside y car and left to go to a secret beach that i only know about. I found this beach when i started feeling alone. I sat down at a rock ad bawled my eyes out. How stupid can I be to think that she would actually hang out for me. I just want to be loved. Sadly no one bring that. Then i hear footsteps i look down from the ground and see Pez and Jess. After a few moments of silence Pez decided to speak up " so im guessing that she was with Luke" I nodded the only people that know about my crush were Pez and Jess. " The sad thing is i saw them half naked. I just want to be loved, i feel that nobody gives a dam about me. If i died tomorrow no on in this whole planet would give a dame. I would be in headlines ut no one would actually mourn over me." " Leigh me and Pez love you, the mixers love you so much" " then why doesn't it feel that way. I know that you guys love me but I don't know about he mixers they really only focus on Pesy or Jade and Luke. Have you seen the many fan accounts you guys have. How many do I have less than five. I just want to feel love." " if you want to fell love so badly then go tell Jade" " Pez it isn't that easy I also don't want to confront her." They both look at each other and nod " Than face time her, here use my phone" I give them a slight nod. Jess takes out her phone and calls Jade " Jess have you seen Leigh she ran off on me. I don't know why she would do that" So she forgot about our plans " No need to fret Jade I got her here and she has to tell you something" Jess hands me the phone
L=Leigh J=Jade
J: why are you crying and what is the thing that you want to tell me
L: Im in love with you
J: What your joking right it cant be.
L: I do
J: but I don't, I don't want to talk to you anymore,
She ends the call and im bawling my eyes out once again. They tried to speak but i cut them off short" I just want to go home. Please don't follow me i want to be alone for a while. " They give me a sad nod. The probably felt sorry for me. I go home and i do something that I haven't done in a while. I take out my trusty friend and slide cuts down my arm. I hiss at the pain but immediately get used to it. About 50 cuts later I started to feel dizzy. Then i knew what i wanted, I wanted to die.. I was right no one would give a dame if i died or not. I looked for a vein and made a cut there. Once i cut there blood came out very quickly and that when i heard my door being kicked down. It was Pez and Jess I was happy that those were the last people that I would see before i die. That's when i feel my eyes dropping i hear Pez yell "No Leigh don't do keep your eyes opened stay with me please" I whisper a small sorry and that's when everything went black
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Sorry from the cliffhanger but i got to give this story some suspense i might do another update today. I will try to update everyday. I hope you guys liked the first chapter of this story. Sorry for any grammar mistakes.