blisters ; jayson

the beginning;

∴             Jul. 2015            ∴

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It was Grayson, leaning against the white walls of their shared apartment, breaths heavy and sobs breaking out of him in waves. 

He doesn't cry too easily so it's hard to make the tears roll down his face, Ethan definitely cries more often than he does, whereas for Grayson it's about only five to seven times a year. 

But when he does cry, it's a true nightmare. 

He doesn't just cry, he weeps and sobs and breaks out all his pent up emotions in broken cries that rip out of his throat horribly. 

The house is dark, he didn't even bother to turn on the lights when he came inside. There's nobody in it right now, Alex was at a singing class, Ethan was at Meredith's place, Aaron was out of town and Jack- 

Grayson's hands reached his head as his fingers began to pull at his blonde highlights, it was the panic attack doing this to him and it was coming strong and hard and fast. 

He couldn't breathe anymore, his face was soaked with his hot tears and snot was leaving his nose and dripping on his philtrum. 

"How could she? How could she?" His voice was soft as he spoke to himself, and the memories of her began flashing through his brain like a camera roll. 

All the sweet things he used to say to her, all the sweet things she used to say back. All the times he sat with her and opened up to her, kissed her soft neck while she massaged his to free him of the stress. She was the first girl who had his heart between her hands out of the hundreds of girls he dated.

It was her blue eyes, that stark black hair that fell over them, her soft pale skin and those freckles spotted around her nose.

It was her words, "I love you so much I could die for you" and then she used to add "baby" and bite his ear. She could make him blush like a girl, or drive into her like a monster, whatever she wanted.

She had him wrapped around his finger and he was her fool.

There was the sound of the door unlocking with a click, Ethan twisted the key and walked nonchalantly until he could hear Grayson's pants through the dark. 

"Gray? That you?" His hand was on the light switch and he pressed it. 

The lights came on to reveal a curled up Grayson on the floor of the living room. 

His eyes were red, puffy, in fact his whole face was pink and swollen and there was a deep frown on his mouth. His hair was a mess, his eyelashes wet. 

"Ethan." 

The sound of that whimper, it broke his heart. 

"Bup, what's wrong?" Ethan hurried over to his brother. 

"It's Summer," he whispered with a whine.

She was always my sunshine. 

"She cheated on me with Jack, my own best friend," he sobs hard, "and dumped me." 

But now she's my demise. 

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That night, furniture was ruined, Jack was punched in the face, first by Grayson and then rattled by him as he stayed silent with guilt, and then punched by Ethan to the stomach when he tried to fight back to Grayson. Alex was dragged into the fight, Grayson accused him of knowing what Jack was doing behind his back all along and he was right, Alex did know.  

Alex tried to explain himself, that he was trying to tell Jack to stop fucking around with Summer, but gave up when Grayson went hysterical and became too emotional and told them all to get out and leave. Alex did, he packed up his things and booked a hotel room because he didn't want to deal with the dramatic bullshit anymore. "I have a career to focus on," he said as a final goodbye to Ethan. 

And Jack, Jack was stuck in the bathroom trying to wipe the blood away from his mouth while Ethan banged on his door to try to get him to talk. 

All the while Grayson was screaming profanities at Ethan, saying he was betraying him too and that he was in on it, when in fact Ethan knew nothing. 

Ethan just shook his head in response. Everything was a mess, vases were broken and coffee tables upturned. Grayson was still crying like his mom died, he must've loved Summer very, very much. 

And then, something really strange happened.

Ethan was shocked when Jack suddenly and forcefully opened the door with a huge swing that it banged against the bathroom wall and shoved Ethan back, screaming, "What DO YOU KNOW ABOUT ANYTHING?!" 

He kept shoving him on the chest until he was out of the way and he saw Grayson out of the corner of his eye, still curled up, and walked up to him with big long strides and shouted, "YOU'RE THE FUCKING REASON I DID EVERYTHING I DID."

He stands there, feet planted on the ground. 

He screams, shaking, tears falling from his eyes and then he falls to his knees, 

"You're the reason for everything, Grayson," he whispers feeling defeated.

There's one last hiccup coming from Grayson as he croaks, "What do you mean?" 

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Author's note

hey guys! i know this has a really depressing beginning but it's kinda basically about what happened between the twins and their friends when they used to live together. ethan said there had to be something to go wrong when he answered about dropping their friends sooo this is kinda in line with jayson (grayson x jack)

I SHIP THEM SO HARD THEY LOOK SO FUCKIHNG CUTEE TOGETHERRRR RKEHKJFJESA like they have so many cute pics together i swear they're real 

PLEASEEE vote and comment i feel like such a loser nobody is reading my stuff 

JAYSON IS THE BEST SHIP EVER