blisters ; jayson

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What if..     ⏪ 

You had the chance to go back, to undo what you did? 

Redo it the right way this time, repeat, reabsorb, reaccept, repray, reforget, reaccuse, resend,

re-love.

Rewind?

∴    Jun 2017   ∴

 

The air was awkward, Grayson was almost as tall as Jack now, Ethan being a tad shorter than Grayson. However, these things never fazed Ethan, his self-confidence never swayed since childhood because, even if Grayson was the bigger twin, he was always told he was the better one, more handsome and smarter than Grayson was, more poised, more chiseled. 

He doesn't believe in all of that now, of course.. But it was why he never was the insecure child, unlike Grayson and his constantly wavering self-esteem.

So the air was awkward, they already said beforehand that they would wait for Aaron to come along so they'd film a video. Like old times, like old times..

"How's life?" Ethan began, he was the social one- no, not with girls for his bad experiences with relationships, but inviting with people generally. He did the talking at events and reunions, like the Youtuber Summit event, and like this one.

Jack's rain-blue eyes flickered quickly to Grayson and then back, he was stealing a glance at him like  a thief, and he smiled that coy smile like he knew something and his deep dimples came out, "Life's been good, E, I just graduated high school, dunno if I'll be going to college honestly. What about you guys?"

"You know, just doing Youtube. We've been gaining subscribers really fast nowadays, it's been a really stable income so far. We wanna try and stretch out to a wider audience in general, you know, really broaden our scope here-"

 "I-I want to do acting," Grayson's interruption is sudden, cheeks flushed a deep pink and eyes wide as he faces Jack. He'd half been mustering up the courage to initiate conversation, and half been waiting, itching to talk to his ex-best friend about his hopes and dreams, how he developed in these two years, what's been on his mind, serious things like this. 

He thought he'd never ask. 

Ethan stares at Grayson, a little taken aback by Grayson's fidgetiness and his obvious nerves. It was always like that anyway, whenever Jack was around, Ethan was almost invisible to Grayson. 

"Oh and what kind of acting? Like the Teen Wolf kinda stuff or Broadway?" Jack's gaze stays fixated on Grayson, but there is turmoil in his eyes, he's just as nervous as Grayson but.. just hides it better than him. 

Something goes click in Grayson's head, the countdown to it is like clockwork and he springs up, brows furrowed as if overcome with emotion, bothered, tested. He'd been looking at Jack's rain-blue eyes too long, too deep and he felt something in his gut, fumbles with his ankles as he gets up,

like he's fallen. 

"You okay?" Ethan quickly says. 

"Yes," Grayson replies curtly, now he looks pissed off and directs his vicious glares at Jack- all the bad memories, all the fights, they come back to him in a flash. Suddenly, he is upset at Jack. All over again.

The bipolarity of Grayson doesn't phase Jack though.

 He gives a curt smile, deep dimples and all, as Grayson walks away and Ethan- Ethan is filled with spite that he will never understand their dynamics, he's a little jealous inside, a little childish but always left out anyway. And yet, Ethan understands that Jack knows how to deal with Grayson better than anyone, handle him in his worst and appreciate him at his best.

Ethan and Jack stay in the warehouse until the sky is purple and the sun is setting, they've talked and talked about all they've missed from each other's lives, catching up a little but never quite enough. Ethan has asked him too, how he could even get a hold of their number and their conversations always ended with a laugh or a giggle. 

There are crickets sounding through the blackness that cloaks, they can hear it through some open windows and Ethan asks warily, "Where do you wanna sleep tonight?" 

They both hear feet shuffling towards them and there comes Grayson through the warehouse door, he's slipping around in his socks and Gucci flip flops, hair soft and matted and shiny like he'd just showered, the caramel tresses are more prominent like this, and a huge pile of  damp laundry sits in his arms. 

His face looks bitter and he says with a load of sass in his voice, "At mines." 

Grayson says this and quickly spins, throwing a mean look at both of them before leaving and Ethan shivers, never knowing how to handle Grayson when he's like this, but Jack-

Jack looks down at the floor, and smiles. 

He'd missed his Grayson.

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author's note

I know this update was the worst one so far, I just haven't been getting a lot of time cause of schoolwork- sorry for this dumb and really short chap. hopefully the next one will turn out better! 

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