blisters ; jayson

past;

∴        Jul. 2015      ∴

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What happened that night, you ask? 

What was done or said that was so bad they had to cut off all ties from each other? Was Grayson such a homophobe back then that he kicked Jack out after he said that? 

No. 

Even when they were younger, yes, though the twins weren't familiar with it, they never disrespected LGBT issues or sentiments. Love was love. Jack said he loved Grayson. Ethan decided then for himself that this was where he would step interfering, it should be only between Jack and Grayson now.

But he regretted it in the duration of those two years, he shouldn't have given them space- maybe what happened wouldn't have happened. 

After Jack confessed his love, explained that he basically hate-fucked Summer (which Grayson couldn't handle hearing about) and talked about how he was confused with his sexuality, everyone went to sleep wordlessly. Grayson didn't only have to deal with being dumped and cheated on, but for a stupid reason like someone having a crush on him. 

But Grayson's judgment was too clouded to understand... it wasn't just a crush. 

It was what happened after four days from that night that ruined everything. 

Jack came home drunk.

Ethan said he wanted to run some errands, but everyone could bet he was with Meredith again. 

Grayson was asleep in his bedroom, depressed and lifeless, until somebody barged into his room.

"Jack," Grayson's voice was raspy from not being used and he sat up quickly, alert at once. He noticed, he could see Jack was tipsy but he could see more that Jack was crying ferociously. 

"Put that outside," Grayson's eyes flickered to the bottle in Jack's hands, the stench was so bad and though Jack was older than the twins, they were all too young for this stuff anyway. The twins expressed this when they first moved in with all of their friends, they didn't want drugs, didn't want alcohol or weed or cocaine or anything of that sort.

"Ok, sure!" Jack shrugged with a drunk stupor, drool leaving his mouth. He was mocking Grayson. How dare he?

"Any other demands, prince?" Jack said with a slur after placing the bottle outside the door and slipping on his socked feet back inside. 

Grayson was silent, angry at his actions but before he could answer Jack, the other stepped forward with a frown building on his face, "You see, it's always what you want, Grayson, isn't it?"

His tone was dangerous, like he'd been stacking up things, thoughts, emotions for too long and was about to explode. 

"Always what you and Ethan want, dragging me along in every which direction you guys want! Especially you!" Jack stood in his place then, pointing an accusing, shaking finger at Grayson.

"You," he growled this and as he did, his hand quickly reached Grayson's throat, who stayed frozen. 

"You, do you know how much you've made me suffer?" Jack's tears overflowed from his eyes like a flood, his face shook in intensity of his words and so did his hand, but his grip on Grayson's throat remained strong. 

"Jack, stop," Grayson could barely say as he struggled to breathe, his fingers reaching up to unfold Jack's hold on his throat, but shaking from anxiety, failing to. 

Jack did stop, his hold left Grayson who was red-faced, fear filling his eyes. It wasn't what Jack wanted to see, he wanted to see love from those hazel eyes. Those eyes. 

So this is what he would never be forgiven for. Because what he did next, he never forgave himself for either. 

He pounced on Grayson on his place in the bed, screaming constantly, "You fucking ruined my life, Grayson! I don't even know if I'm straight anymore, you don't even give a shit, do you?!" Grayson's wrists were under his grip now, who was usually stronger than Jack but somehow, someway Jack had him so tightly under his hold, that the only thing Grayson could do was wriggle around and kick his legs. It happened too fast and Grayson didn't know what to do.

Grayson only kept croaking, let me go, let me go.

But Jack wasn't having it, his free hand ripped up Grayson's shirt and Grayson struggled against him like a worm. "I love you, Gray, I'll show how you much."

"What the fuck are you doing?!" Grayson attempted to breathe through his words, he could feel his anxiety rising, his vision becoming hazy and his strength to struggle becoming even weaker.

Jack cried through the entire ordeal, consistently quivering, he was so afraid himself, so he suddenly stopped.. midway after leaving a few kisses on Grayson's neck. Because he'd seen Grayson's face, the one he loved the most, the soft chocolate brown and blonde tresses falling on his face and that mole right above his lip. His two-year long unrequited love, his precious best friend, the one guy he knew who always tried to do good, with a heart of gold and eyes bright like a child's and a smile that wouldn't be traded for the entire fortune of the world,  had asked him to stop.

 He stopped.. but he didn't let go, and instead he cried against Grayson's bared chest, sobbing and letting it all out.

Of course, he couldn't do it. He would never. He could never. 

He wasn't like that. He couldn't be like that.

Grayson's tears began to collect at his own eyes, when Jack loosened his strength and he finally broke free by applying a little bit of force. As soon as he could move his arms again, he shoved Jack away and scrambled out of the bed, collecting the ripped fabric of his shirt around his now shirtless body, "YOU'RE FUCKING CRAZY!" 

Jack sat on the edge of the bed, defeated with his hands in his hair. 

It was Ethan who came then, shocked to see Grayson screaming from the hallway, shirt messed, hair messed, face flushed with anger. He could understand immediately what had happened and at once he said to Jack, "leave right fucking now or I'm calling the police on you."

🐦    @ ethandolan:    I'm over seeing people accuse gray and I of "dropping friends." We wouldn't just not be friends with someone unless something went wrong

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author's note

HEY GUYS! omg please vote or comment if ur reading cause i have no idea if anyone likes this at all ughh, i can't wait to see the twins new video i bet it's with jack.   

P.S. if you dont understand anything just ask in the comments! 

LOVE,   -m