Right Through Me (Austin Mahone Fan Fiction)

Chapter 17- "She wasn't what I needed."

│Junior Year: May│

We've been practicing for the pass hour and he's still sitting there watching us, watching me. I can't even concentrate on anything I'm doing yet alone do something right; he's distracting me like there's no tomorrow. It feels like I'm under this microscope and that every single move I make is noted and evaluated, it's driving me insane.

At the far end of the gymnasium, we have a mini version of bleachers for whenever we have a game people can sit there and watch. And it seems that today, Austin decided to make an appearance and basically sit there all practice by himself. It doesn't bother me that he's watching but it does bother me that he's watching me. Every time I look over I can see his eyes focused on one person only and that's me. Only me.

It has to be around six now and we're still practicing, trying to come up with a new choreography. Morgan's been giving out orders all night and even though I should be too, I can't keep my head to it. I know she's getting frustrated and that as co-captain I need to work with the captain herself but stupid Austin is making everything harder than it needs to be.

"Okay again; 1, 2, 3, 4, right, left, right left, back, back jump and kick," that's all I keep repeating trying to get everyone to get this routine down before tomorrow. But obviously, it's harder than it looks considering Kaylee's having trouble keeping in sync while Brittany's having trouble keeping her balance altogether. If one person doesn't get it right then it's either we start over completely or we do it over and over and over until they get it. Obviously, it takes time and patience.

I'm moving at the same pace as everyone else yet I'm a hundred percent sure I'm sweating twice as much. I don't really know if anyone noticed that he was sitting there but if they did then they probably just brushed it off thinking nothing of it I mean, we're used to dancing in front of people but this time it wasn't the same, it wasn't people, it was person. To them it meant nothing but to me that person was my best friend that I haven't talked to since yesterday.

For some reason, he's been pushing everyone and everything away, including me. I try to not let it bother me but it does, it bothers me more than anything else. I make all the efforts in the world to stay in contact with him but sometimes he just seems so out of it, so lost in his thoughts that it's hard to get through. I know something's wrong but he won't tell me, I can't even figure it out myself.

So the fact that he's sitting there right now makes me more nervous than ever because I don't know what he's thinking, I don't know why he's staring at me, I don't why he's there altogether if we haven't been talking all that much. I didn't even tell him I had practice but I guess he knew, he always knows.

"Sadie, what next?" Morgan turned to me while placing both hands on her hips "I'm not sure if we should go directly to air throws or continue on the floor."

"Um, I don't know. Whatever you want."

"But I don't know what I want that's why I'm asking you."

Sighing, I rubbed my forehead trying to release some of the stress that had built up over the last few minutes. "We should stay on the floor to make it more even considering we do air jumps right before."

"Okay so what did you have in mind?" and that's when I froze; I didn't have anything in mind. I could almost feel his eyes burning at the back of me from afar and my level of self control was diminishing by the second. I didn't know what to do next because I couldn't anymore. Practice was over for me, done. "Anything?" she asked again but I didn't budge, I was mentally freaking out.

"I'm sorry but I can't do this right now."

"It's fine, Sade. Look, we'll just practice tomorrow on a clear head," she turned to everyone "Got it?" they all nodded before picking up their bags and heading out the doors. Coach wasn't here today and I thanked God for that because I would've been dead no doubt about it. She was so strict about these things and surely, she would've pushed me in the ass to complete it.