Right Through Me (Austin Mahone Fan Fiction)

Chapter 1- "I know."

A/N: Before you start reading i just wanted to say that this whole entire story is based on the songs Fall and Love Me Like you do by Justin Bieber. If you've never listen to any of them then i don't know what you're doing with your life.

Okay that's all i hope you guys like this one,

i love you.

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│Present time│

There's absolutely nothing worse than expecting the unexpected or to say the least, what was standing before me. This big lump had formed itself at the back of my throat as I fiddled with my fingers unsure of how this had even come to such an arrangement.

Although the room was completely silence, the tension though, was indescribable. My stomach had been flipped upside down while a sudden urge to puke had taken over within seconds. And if it wasn't for the light partly hiding what I dreaded seeing, I'd for sure would have fallen to the floor right then and there.

After months of confusion, frustration, uncertainty and complete and utter most sadness, it came back and had just hit me so hard that my breath had been taken away making it impossibly hard to breathe; I was gasping for air.

I imagined the scenario a thousand times, at least, in my head about this précised day but what stood there had me stunned and unable to move even an inch of my small body.

My wavy, blonde hair was resting carelessly onto my chest as I watched it go up and down along with my breathing pattern that was, as already mentioned, all over the place. I refused to make eye contact or even look up for that matter because if I did, I would grow weak and lose myself, again. To say I was hurting would be an understatement, it was much worse. I was extremely angry and even though I didn't want to, I couldn't stop myself.

The sun had already set as the dark sky had made its way over the small town we called San Antonio, it was night. I wondered if I could actually handle this because yes I was strong, but this had gone over the edge numerous times before and I just didn't know if I could do it one more time. But most obviously, there was no running away because I was cornered inside my own room; nowhere to run, nowhere to hide, no escape.

Sinking my teeth into my bottom lip in order to make the tremble stop, both my hands formed into fists at my sides as my eyes started to sting. I fought the urge to cry so badly because I couldn't let myself do it, I had already cried too much and to be honest, my body was drained.

The past three months or so had been the absolute worst because there was no contact at all. I tried so hard to keep what we had alive but he wasn't responding or even acknowledging my existence. Somehow, he had slipped away and I watched it all unfold right before my bare eyes while slowly dying on the inside more and more each and every day. He was, is my everything.

Taking in a sharp breath, I shifted my weight onto my left leg while crossing my arms over my stomach feeling sick to the sudden pressure I had been put upon. I still couldn't understand how I was even standing because surely enough, I hadn't slept in weeks and my body was more than exhausted both physically and mentally. I wanted to drop to the floor and crawl into a ball but I couldn't. I wanted to scream but I couldn't. My heart was aching and he knew it.

The sudden click of my door shutting was heard and that's when I knew this would be harder than I initially thought. My head still held low refusing to meet his iris, I backed away the second I heard him make his way closer; the more the distance, the better. And right when I did that, I felt him tense up even though I wasn't close enough to even reach out and touch his arm.