Right Through Me (Austin Mahone Fan Fiction)

Chapter 19- "It's over."

│Senior Year: September│

I never thought walking through two doors could feel so lonely until I did so myself, day after day, every single morning. The people talking around me would feel my ears yet everything would still seem as quiet as ever. It was weird, to say the least, I mean if I thought people were looking at me before then surely I had another thing coming.

Rumours. Rumours are what fed this school's craving matter along with all the students that went along with it and to be honest, if I didn't know better, I'd say they were all trying to get under my skin. The only thing that was hard to ignore was the fact that some of them were true.

As if it wasn't hard enough to keep my mind away from the problem at hand, going to school was a daily reminder of what my life had really come down to not to mention how bad it really was. People kept running their mouths yet the information was as inaccurate as it could get. They would look at us, try to analyze the situation and then come up with some crazy ass conclusion; it made no sense. No one really knew what went down and quite frankly, neither did I. I had been living in the dark for months now and every day only seemed to get worse.

It's when I would walk pass him in the hallways, though, that my heart would start aching and my body tingling. Countless times I had wanted to run up to him and wrap my arms around his neck just engulfing him in this incredibly tight hug but of course, that was out of the question. People just kept staring all the time with their eyebrows knit together in confusion and if this wasn't the perfect definition of high school then I don't know what was.

High school: A place where sleep deprived kids are force into one cramped building which causes by nature a propaganda of nosy yet very annoying people that get into each other's business having this overwhelming urge to know every single detail about everyone's irrelevant life.

And that's where I stand right now; everyone wants to know why Austin and I don't talk anymore. They want to know what happened to best friends forever, they want to know what was so bad that caused us to drift away in the spam time of about a few months. I mean their questions weren't out of the loop but they certainly weren't in either; it's our lives, not theirs.

Today was different though because I wasn't going to stand around waiting for an answer to appear out of the blue. All these rumours were driving me insane and I needed to clear things up for my own well being because certainly by the looks of it, I wasn't doing very well. Exhaustion, hurt and guilt, that's all I felt. It was like this vicious yet never ending cycle kept going round and round and I was falling deeper and deeper, I couldn't live like this. It was literally killing me on the inside.

It was after school in the parking lot. I was standing by the door searching for that red car while everyone poured out of the school rushing to get back home as fast as possible. My eyes roamed the area and it was only when I spotted the shinny colour at the back that my feet immediately took me to it not wanting to wait a second longer. Not going to lie, my heart was practically beating out of my chest but this needed to be done, I couldn't stand around anymore just hoping something would get better from one day to the next because the chances of that happening were about as thin as a fishing line; close to none.

The more I walked, the closer I got. With every step I took it felt like fire and as for my body? The whole entire thing was ignited with adrenaline. My breathing was irregular and my mind was scattered all over the place, but it's only when someone took my arm and stopped me dead in my tracks that everything around me seemed to have stopped.

"I've been looking for you everywhere," he said out of breath just letting me to assume he had been running, "I waited at your locker for the longest time but you never came."