The Life of a High School Girl

Ch.13) Don't hurt me baby, I love you

Diary, I couldn't take it anymore.

After reading that text message of his, my eyes began to tear up and I began to cry. I came up with the most weird conclusions ever and in frustration I threw his phone across the room. It hit the wall and fell on the floor. I wanted to get out of there as soon as possible. I didn't even want to see his bloody face at all. I was assuming that Ben heard my rage and came out of the shower, by that time I was halfway down the stairs. He called after me but I ran out. Ben's mother asked me what was wrong I didn't even look at her and barged straight for the door without turning to say anything to her.

I ran straight to my black car and begun my engine with less than 10 seconds. I heard a familiar voice yelling my name and from the corner of my eyes I could see that it was Ben, in his towel. I felt so disgusted by the sight of his deceitful face. I didn't know where to go, it was Saturday Izzie always spent it with Harry. The only person I could think of in this situation was Taylor. She'd been cheated on before, since she'd gone out with the biggest douche bags. I drove myself to her house not knowing if she was going to be there or not but I took a risk anyway. 

I was so hurt I turned on the radio and obviously this sounds so cliche and the song "Safe and Sound" by Taylor Swift was on and I immediately began to tear up. As the lyrics of the song sank into me my heart began to ache. Had I been over-reacting or was it that I'd been blindly trusting Ben? Whatever it was I felt like i'd been stabbed in the heart. I wanted to cut myself, this was all my fault. All because I couldn't give him what I wanted and I just had to run away when he came to apologize. But still! That did not give him a choice to cheat on me, how could he....

With all this thinking going on in my head i'd reached Taylor's house in no time, I'd parked near her porch.  I unbuckled myself, opened my door and locked it. I jogged myself to her house wanting to waste no time. Because I was sure I was going to gain some white hair with all this tension. I knew where Taylor's spare key was and I grabbed it and exploded into her house and called out for Taylor when I got a response I knew she was in her room and so I headed towards it. 

I banged open her door with my face scrunched up from crying and Taylor's face was just really confused and surprised.

I ran to her and hugged her and let out all my cries. I had my arms wrapped around her waist and her arms was around me as she rubbed my back soothingly. "Shhh, shhh it's okay Silver. Hun tell me what happened, you're worrying me." I could sense concern in her voice. "You're my strong girl, come on stop crying for me and tell me what happened, ye?" she said as she pulled me away at arm length, I couldn't see her because the tears blurred my vision completely. 

I guess she was right so I tried my best to stop myself from crying because I was bound to soon start hiccuping from crying. She handed me tissues and I accepted them delightfully and wiped my face gently. When I had finished I looked at her and explained every single thing as she just sat there as an amazing listener. 

"Sweetie, you're just coming up with theories. Who knows what if she just pushed herself on him? Don't blame him for anything yet unless you know for sure. At least give him a chance to explain himself right?" she said whilst sitting cross legged with her legs on her lap. "Maybe, but I want to have some space from him. He could've at least told me. I tell him every single thing, we never hide things" I said with an innocent and hurt face. "How about we go out for some coffee?" she said with a pityful smile on her face. I agreed, I seriously needed some diversion.

Taylor didn't bother changing out of her boxer shorts and tank top and slipped on black coloured Toms. She didn't even have to bother trying because she was just naturally beautiful. We went to the Starbucks that was Ben's favourite. I bought a Vanilla latte ice-cold and Taylor bought a Toffee Nut latte hot.