don't wanna cry// mingyu

three

she was counting the days to see how mingyu could cope without her and since then, she started regretted everything. she kept asking herself why she became the topic for the day. she kept asking herself what was discussed in that chat group and she had to remind herself that mingyu was her bestfriend so even if she planned to fight back, she couldn't. she was too weak. she couldn't hurt other people back and she didn't understand why.

she grew up with him, played with him, cried with him, laughed with him and the idea of seeing tears or guilt on his face was just too hard for yerim.

not gonna lie, there were days she would ask herself if she was being too kind. she kept on thinking if she had ever crossed mingyu's mind.

the funny thing was how she was desperately trying to get him back and how ready he was to let go of her.

oh, look, yerim used lip tint to school? when the hell this started happening? and they should have known her and believed her better than the stupid rumor. first of all, it's not wrong to have red lips. secondly, why do they even look at her lips? thirdly, why is it such a problem to all of them? it's her lip and she can do whatever she wants with it.

unable to take everything in, she accused herself to go to the toilet multiple times that day. she totally didn't used the toilet to relieve herself but to cry. i want to go home. i couldn't take it anymore. would he care if i cried? would he care if i shut him out of my life?

she knew she was acting lower than a slut, doing things to get his attention but she couldn't help it. she missed that feeling.

but she didn't dare to do it. because the next day, she predicted that everyone was going to start talking about her being a crybaby. what a life.