don't wanna cry// mingyu

eight

oh yeah, of course, the matter became bigger when everybody got to know it the next day. it doesn't really affect her- what she would actually believe. but it's hard to the point that she dreaded going to school.

she began to act desperate towards mingyu. she followed him around like a little puppy, she ate at the table behind him and stalked on him every single time. yes, to that extent.

for numerous times, she would always tell herself to just stop and let go of him but she couldn't. and that made her frustrated as hell.

from having a lot of friends and supporters, she was suddenly alone. she would usually force herself to join another group- 'the smart ones' and of course, she had mixed feeling about it.

she didn't want to appear as if she was the one betraying him. she didn't want to appear as if she was the one seeking his attention by suddenly excluding herself from his group, 'the cool squad'
at first, just during the beginning, she told herself that she would force herself to make up with him for popularity but i mean, popularity over friendship?

at the same time, what if it was for the best and to encourage herself to open up her heart to accept other people?

she sighed heavily and put her head on the table. life just sucks.
"hey, are you ok?"
"nah, i am just overthinking about him, i guess."
"you know, i hate seeing you sad but i would never comfort you with a lie in this situation."

yerim tilted her head in confusion. "what do you mean?"

"he kinda complained to me about you. like how frustrated he is with you and how he couldn't take you anymore. i told him that he shouldn't be worrying about this because i mean, you're happy with what you're doing."

don't cry, just don't cry.
ugh, of course, tears spilled from her eyes.

"why is he so unsatisfied with me? what did i do? is it because of my position?

her friend didn't answer because well, she have had enough hurting yerim.

she turned around, rested her head at the table once again and started crying.

what accompanied her was mingyu's laughter at the background.

again, why is he chosen to feel happiness?

at that point of time, all she wanted was to get out of that room.