Secrets *WIP*

III

The thing about life is that you have to remember that the bad things happen for a reason. Everything happens for a reason. No ones life is perfect, there will always be faults. Something is always hiding deep inside.
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I wake up and find a pretty yellow dress to wear and put on the necklace. I go to my mirror and just look at myself. I try and put on a smile, but it wouldn't stay each time I smiled I felt pain. Over the years I've tried to put on a brave face for no one will see my pain. I've volunteered many days and nights to get my mind off of how messed up my life is. But the truth is that, that stopped working years ago so now I just smile, I smile when I'm hurting. Marcine has always told me that I hide behind my smile. I guess she was right.
I wish sometimes that I was in that car with them, then I could be with them forever and not be here with a messed up mom. But then I think who would be here for her when she needs me. "Stop feeling sorry for yourself'' I say to the mirror be and leave my bathroom.

I go downstairs to find my mom passed out drunk on the couch, it's literally the same every morning. "Mom I'm taking the car." I said knowing she can't hear me. I grab her keys and leave the house.

As I drive I see Carter walking, I drive right pass him. I stopped the car feeling bad. I don't want to be mean to him, even after all the things he has done to me .I backed up the car and stopped in front of him. "Carter do you want a ride?"

"No it's fine I need the exercise I haven't worked out in a while" I looked at up and down, he looked so good. I don't think he needs to workout.

"Yeah I do too,but do you see me walking?"

"No." He hesitated for a moment, "Yeah, okay just don't make this a habit." He gets in the car and I start to drive.

"I thought you went to juvie."

"I did for a while then I got out and my parents sent me to military school and now I'm back here."

"Why juvie?"

"They thought I had a drinking problem so I was basically in rehab." I nod my head showing him I was listening.

"Woah Lieah your driving way to fast."
I look over to him as if he was joking,
"Keep your eyes on the rode!" He yelled at me.

"Okay, okay, fine, chill out."
I rolled my eyes and continued to drive.
Why was he so worried about my driving? "You know you have no right to comment on my driving, at least I'm not drunk" I blurted out and then regretted it.

"That's not fair Lieah."

I instantly stop the car. "Not fair, you want to know what's not fair." he stayed silent. "My sister will never grow up, never get to experience going to school, meeting her best friend, falling in love, that's not fair Carter. Also my father will never get to walk me down the aisle. Oh and let's not forget my mom she's a drunken mess. So please tell me what is not fair."

"Lieah-"

"Ugh just stop," I took a deep breathe. "Get out Carter," he did nothing He just sat there, I began tear up but quickly wiped them away. "I said get out!" My voice getting louder with each word I spoke.

He exited the car leaving me a complete mess. Woah, I actually said those things to him. I've been holding that in for so long. I've never actually wanted to tell him off, thinking he was suffering enough just knowing that he had to live with what he did. So I promised myself next time I saw him I would forgive him, but since the thing with Marcine happened I haven't had time to. And everything I've been wanting to say to him just came out.

I get to school to find everyone still staring at me as if I an outcast to society. I get to the lounge and find Betty, Archie and Veronica all sitting together and a new but familiar face, Jughead Jones. "Hey Lieah, I'm sure you know Jughead," Betty said.