Secrets *WIP*

VIII

Love, love sucks. Well that's a lie. Not all the time. Just when you fall for a guy and he turns out to be a completely jerk. And he breaks your heart. But the love that is from friends is the most important love yet. You know the saying keep friends close and your enemies closer. I don't like it. Shouldn't you keep the ones that love you the most closer, to prevent drama or anything else? I don't know I could be wrong but that's what I think.

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I woke up to see Carter staring down at me. "Good morning."

I was about to talk then I quickly stopped myself remembering it's morning time. I push my self away from him and go to the bathroom to freshen up. That was the first night I've ever slept with a guy. Yeah I've had boyfriends but having a guy wake up next to me is a total different ball game.

I walk out to see that Carter was shirtless in my room. "Umm what are you doing?"

"Oh sorry I had blood on my shirt, do you have an extra one?"

I nod my head and move quickly out of the room. As I enter my moms room my I was breathing faster at the memory of him. Oh gosh he was so hot. How can someone have that much muscle in there stomach. I snap out it of started focusing on the task at hand.

I go to my mom closet and see that everything was the same from 3years ago. Nothing has changed. I go to the back where my dads puts his polo shirts and his shorts. He always put his casual clothes at the back because he was rarely out of a suit. I grab all the them not knowing how long Carter would be here. Then I go to her bathroom and started looking for a toothbrush. Then I found one, it was a sparkley Barbie toothbrush. We had just bought it for her the night she went to Grammys. It was suppose to be a surprise since she loved Barbie so much. A tear rolled down my face at the memory.

"Are you okay?"
I turn around to see Carter standing there. Before I know it was crying more. He practically ran to be and wrapped his arms around me. "I'm so sorry Lieah I-"

"It's not your fault stop blaming yourself."

"I could've-"

"You were a damn child so stop blaming yourself or I swear I will kick you out of my house."

All he did was nod and unwrapped himself from me. "Here I'm sure you can fit this and here is the only extra toothbrush we have."

He looked down at the toothbrush and let out a soft chuckle. 

We go back to room. While his in the shower I text Betty and Veronica asking them to meet me somewhere later. Once he was done I get in.

In the shower I just let the water fall all over my hair and face. It doesn't take long  for it to curl up and I start to regret it all. My life for the past weeks has been hard. But I'm a fighter and I will fight though all of this and find my best friend, alive. And maybe a love interest while I'm at it. I laugh at the thought.

I get out and look at myself in mirror, I looked awful. How can someone look this bad.  My eyes were red my face was plain. I just looked like I lost everything in my life. Which is almost true.

I walk out to see, well I couldn't really see anything everything was blurry. But I could make out Carter sitting on my bed. Is it crazy that for a minute I thought he was my dad?

"You know you snore, it's really cute."
I look down at my feet knowing I was blushing like crazy. "Sorry that was dumb to say."

"No it's fine it was just random, have you seen my glasses I can't see anything right now."