Chapter 7
Nadine's POV
When Nicola and I arrived back at my home it was safe to say that I wasn't too content. I couldn't relax when I was being pampered or sitting still. The problem is, it leaves my mind to its own devices. It's allowed to wonder and think and overanalyse every aspect of my existence.
This time though I wasn't too upset about it. I had finally come to make some important decisions regarding my relationship with Jason. I just couldn't do it anymore.
This time it wasn't because I was scared of commitment of settling down, it was because I just wasn't in love with him anymore. My heart was no longer racing, the butterflies in my stomach had disappeared and I didn't want it to be like that.
If I knew one thing about myself it was that I would never settle for just settling. I would be happier alone than in a relationship like this.
"Hey baby, I'm glad your back" Jason told me as he greeted me with a kiss.
"Jason, I think we-" I began, but I was interrupted.
"Okay guys, I'm just gonna head in for the night, enjoy yours" Nicola told us before heading up the stairs, leaving Jason and I alone in our living room.
"Look" he started, looking at me seriously "I know what you're going to say".
I gave him a questioning look in response, there was no chance he knew what I was going to say.
"Things have been weird and different between us the past few days" he told me, staring straight into my eyes. "But I think after tonight things will be quite different, they will be better".
I really didn't want to drag the suspense on any more, I just wanted tonight to be over and done with.
"Okay, so what's the plan for tonight?" I asked him, trying to sound enthusiastic enough so he would believe I was interested.
"It's a surprise" he told me, sounding satisfied.
"Why don't you head upstairs, put something nice on, and I'll bring the car around".
I did as he said, heading up the stairs and towards the bedroom we shared. I decided to go for the something a little more conservative than normal. A simple, deep blue dress the shimmered lightly, and sat just below my knees.
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I sat in front of my vanity, staring at myself in the mirror. I'd just finished putting my hair and completing my makeup. But I was feeling physically ill, my stomach churned at the thought of going out tonight with him.
I thought about going to speak with Nicola, she was only across the hall after all, but I had mixed a motions about that. I decided on calling Kimberley, when I was younger she was the one person I would always end up turning to for advice. Now I would usually just talk to my sisters, or other close friends, but they all loved Jason. Kimberley was someone who knew me well enough to offer an unbiased opinion.
"Hello?" Came an extremely groggy voice through the phone, it was then I remembered that it was really, really early in London.
She'd only just returned from holidays too... Good time for me to have problems when she had jet lag.
"Kimberley" I whispered in the handset, trying not to be too audible. "I'm so sorry if I woke you".
"Nadine?" She asked me, "why are you calling me this early?".
I felt bad, she sounded a little worried.
"I just..." I started slowly, trying to figured out how to word this "I need your help Kim".
There was a slight pause on her end, and then with a sigh and and some rustling she told me "let me just go to the lounge, I don't was to wake Justin".
This was quite reminiscent of the old days for a moment, when we used to live together I would always be waking her up in the night needing her advice.
"What's bothering you, honey?"
"It's Jason, I-"
"Oh not you too" she suddenly said, cutting me off.
"What?" I asked her after a moment, not completely registering what she'd just said.
"You and Jason are having problems? I've just come back to Cheryl telling me that she's filing for separation from Ashley".
Woah... I thought to myself. I know things hadn't been going easy for them but I didn't think things were at all that bad.
And that's when I thought, who was I to be talking to Kim about my stupid relationship problems? She had Cheryl to worry about these days, I couldn't turn to her the same way I used to.
I cringed a myself, I didn't want to be this person, confused and scared. I wanted and needed to figure it out for myself.
I knew what I needed to do about Jason and I knew why I couldn't talk to Nicola about it.
"Kimberley, would you mind if I called you back tomorrow?"
"Sure babe, but didn't you want to talk?"
"I think I know what I need to do, send Cheryl my best okay?"
"Of course, good luck". She told me before ending the conversation.
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I walked out into the hallway, off to find Jason and to he this night over with when I ran into Nicola coming out of the bathroom.
She approached me slowly, just staring straight at me.
"Wow..." She said "Nadz you look so beautiful". I don't know if she was telling me or if she was telling herself. She seemed to be caught in some kind of a trance, but I took the compliment anyway.
"Thank you, Nicola".
I watched her eyes dart over me again, from my legs before resting on my lips, then finally on my eyes. It sent shivers up my spine.
"Um, I'll see you when you get back... You need to tell me everything".
"Yeah" I told her "sure thing".
