People would have paid so much to be sitting and watching the show you were watching but you couldn't move. Meagan eventually coaxed you on stage as all the guys said thank you for the night. You had a smile plastered on your face. Obviously faked. Josh stood next to you and Patrick on the other side. They introduced you to the crowd as 'Josh's other half' and everyone's favorite photographer.
You were soon allowed to shuffle off of the stage. You found a chair to sit in. Everyone was deciding what they wanted to do for the rest of the night. It was decided that everyone was going to a bar.
Oh good. Loss of inhibition with the guy you could barely keep your feelings from in the first place. Fun times. You shared a cab with Dallon and Kenneth to the bar that everyone was meeting at. Dallon had to practically drag you inside.
You situated yourself in the corner of the table where the guys were sitting. You leaned on Dallon and regretted coming to the tour.
Pete brought you a drink and you honestly had no clue what it was but you drank it. It dulled your thoughts a little and drank whatever anyone gave you. You didn't care. About an hour and a half later, you were tipsy, Brendon and Pete were hammered and Joe was highly intoxicated. Everyone else, minus Andy of course, was buzzed. The decision was made that everyone would head back to the venue and hang out in the Panic! at the Disco tour bus.
You took the same cab with Kenneth and Dallon. Everything made you giggle. Dallon telling you to fasten your seatbelt made you giggle. You didn't mind the feeling much. You walked with Kenneth to the bus as Dallon helped Brendon. You sat in the corner of the couch on the back of the couch and Tyler sat in front of you.
Everyone was talking at once. Random things were being spouted until someone started the conversation of how excited they were to see their spouse.
"I guess mine is already here" you heard Josh say over the din of the drunken conversation. Meagan made a bigger deal out of it than you wanted.
"Wait, Josh, what do you mean?" she spouted. You loved Meagan but she lost any sense of control when drunk.
"Well, [Y/n] is practically my wife. I mean she flew across the country because I cried. Who the fuck does that?" he said. No one laughed. No one thought it was funny.
"Josh, you don't even deserv-" you heard Dallon start to interject, you could hear the anger in his voice.
"Apparently just me, then." you said quietly, interrupting Dallon. You stood up and started to walk across the bus to the door. You needed to get out. You were hurt and tired and drunk.
"Wait, [Y/n], you know I think you're like my sister. Don't worry about it." you cringed at the idea of him thinking of you as a sibling.
"Wow Joshua, way to comfort me. It's like I flew across the country to comfort the guy I had fallen in love with when he was down. That's obviously crazy. Fuck off, man." you shot back at him, the words feeling like venom. You regretted it immediately. You had just told him and everyone else that you were in love with him.
You immediately walked out the door. The cold air stinging your skin but waking you up. The tears were already falling down your cheeks. You sat down next to the door of the Twenty One Pilots bus and sobbed. You heard someone walk up to you.
"[Y/n], please. Talk to me." you heard Josh whisper as he put his hand on your back. You stood up immediately, needing to get away from his touch.
"Joshua, I gave you your time to talk. I'm fed up. Please just fuck off." you said as you turned away and started to walk away.
"I didn't know. I'm sorry." he says softly.
"Well sorry doesn't magically fix everything now does it. You know what? Maybe it does. Hey Joshua. Im sorry I have fallen in love with you over and over again for years. Does that fix this shit show? No? Didn't think so." you spat at him.
