Top Secret 2[ON HOLD]

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To my amazing supporters,

I'm going to start out with a sincere apology. A year ago was when I last updated any of my books and I couldn't be any more sorry than I am right now.

I'm going to tell you exactly why I've been away and why I haven't been writing.

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The guy I was dating for almost 5 years ended up cheating on me, verbally abusing me, and throwing my life upside down. I loved him as he was my high school sweetheart, my world, and my future spouse (or so we planned.) I gave up many opportunities to go away for college and many other things to stay home with him and attend a local college by his side.

We had an awful falling out and broke up and shocked our families. It was heartbreaking but what was even more awful than that, was the turmoil my heart, body, and soul were going through. I ended up trying to finish college but never did. I dropped out because I was experiencing full blown anxiety attacks in my classroom from the PTSD I was having. I wasn't sleeping because of nightmares and sleep paralysis. Eventually I stopped eating, too. I mean, I wasn't starving myself but I was just so depressed that barely surviving was okay with me.

I went to therapy where my psychologist told me I was depressed and experiencing mild to severe anxiety. I got what I needed to hear and never went back. As the months went on into summer time, I almost went to rehab. I was considering it because I was no longer the Sarah everyone thought I was.

But things got better.

I got a really good job, I was going out with my friends again, and I was immersing myself into my family. Family is so important and I am so grateful to have mine the way it is. Their love and support really helped me get back on my feet again.

I started dating, like, going out on dates. I met some people but they wanted me for sex and nothing more. So I dropped them. No one needs that negativity.

After a while, back in July, an old friend of mine from middle school graduated basic training in the Air Force and contacted me. We Skyped all the time, texted all the time, and we instantly hit it off like we did when we were young.

Long story short, a very sappy love story to be exact, we got married in March and I now live with him down south! I am so happy. He took the time to nurse my wounds, to listen to me, communicate with me. He did everything to pick up the broken pieces and helped put me back together. I have never felt so free in my life!

I want you all to know that from now on, no matter how hard things get, DONT give up. Keep your head high, put a smile on that gorgeous face of yours, and prove to the world you can do it! Always put yourself first and always make yourself happy first. I promise you, there is a light in life and even on the darkest days, it's still there. Conquer your dreams and conquer your fears, live life to the fullest and follow your potential because I know y'all have it.

I love y'all so much,
Sarah 💖