Haikyuu One Shots

Note - {Iwaoi} - Angst

Oikawa's POV

It was after classes when I first noticed how he changed. Like usual I was swarmed by my many fangirls. Usually he would just pull me away and drag me to practice, but today, he just stared and walked to the gym by himself. It wasn't just that, he was getting sloppier with his spikes, his grades were slowly degrading, and he'd rarely pay anymore attention to me. I tried asking him what was wrong, but he just pushed me away.

It hurt. It hurt a lot. To me, he wasn't just a childhood friend, he was my everything. Being pushed away by someone you love hurts.

It hurts a lot more if you know they don't love you back.

Out of fear of losing him, I kept these feelings all to myself. It was killing me, but I knew it would kill me more if our friendship became nonexistent... Which was happening right now.

Soon, he stopped coming over, then stopped eating lunch with me.... Eventually our talking became a minimum...

One day after practice, I decided to confront him about what's going on...
But... I saw him walking home... With another girl...

It broke my heart... That night, all I did was cry... The morning came and I knew I just couldn't face him without breaking down.

This was taking a huge toll on me. I couldn't focus at all. My grades plummeted, my sets were off, my coach had to give me a week off cause he thought I was sick. Even with all this happening... He still wouldn't even look at me....

I couldn't take anymore. It was eating me up. I needed this to end....

Iwazumi's POV

What was I doing? Avoiding him like some middle school kid. Pathetic. I just couldn't face him. I couldn't face the fact that I was in love with my best friend. I couldn't face rejection and breaking our friendship..... Even if that IS what I'm doing right now.... ARGH IM SO STUPID. Why is ignoring him the way to go? I should just suck it up and pretend like my heart isn't going 100bpm..... DAMMIT I CAN'T EVEN LOOK AT HIM... What am I gonna do?

"-san! -zumi-san! IWAZUMI-SAN!" I snap out of my trance and look towards my kouhai.

"Uh, y-yes? Sorry, what is it Kindachi?"

"Do you know whats wrong with Oikawa-san?" he asks as he looks over to the bench where a resting Oikawa sat with a towel over his head.

"No... I don't..." I replied, looking down.

"Oh... He's been out of it lately, do you think you talk to him Iwazumi-san?" Has he been this bad? I haven't really noticed... Since I was avoiding him....

"Oh.. Uhm, I'll try..." I say back to him and he thanks me and leaves for the club room.

I go back to the gym from the club room, expecting to find Oikawa practicing his serves like usual, but to my surprise, he wasn't there. I suddenly felt uneasy for no reason. I had the urge to run to his house and talk to him, but I shouldn't.... Or should I... I turn around, about to debate on what to do and what what to say when I see Matsukawa and Hanamaki sprinting towards me, Makki holding a piece of paper.

"You.. Hurry, you gotta.." Mattsun tries to say through all the panting.

"What are you guys talking about? Why are you running?"

"No time," Makki says as he shoves the piece of paper to my chest. "Just hurry." He pushes me more, urging me to go. I open the piece of paper and read what's on it.

Dear Iwa-chan,

By the time you're reading this, it's probably already too late. I'm sorry about leaving you like this. The truth is, I've always loved you. Not the love you'd have for a brother or a friend, but the kind of love that makes me want to hug you and give you kisses and be with you forever. I couldn't stand the thought of you hating me. Please take care of the team. Be happy for me. I'll always love you.

Oikawa Tooru

I stare at the note for a few seconds, try to process what's happening. At first I feel overjoyed by the fact that he loves me back, but that soon was taken over by fear of what he meant by 'leaving me'. My eyes widened in realization. No.

"Iwa-" I cut Maki off with the dropping of my bag. I turned to Oikawa's house and ran as fast as my legs could take me, desperately clutching onto the note he wrote. I feel my vision getting blurry, tears welling up making it harder for me to see. I finally reach his house, taking out a spare key from under a plant pot. I fumble a bit, my hands trembling. Please don't. Please don't leave me alone. That was the only thing on my mind. I finally got it and ran inside, heading to his room. I had hoped to find him lying on his bed, watching an alien documentary with his cute lil glasses on, but instead I was greeted with one of the worsts things imaginable. There lay Oikawa in a pool of blood. I ran to his side, trying to stop his wrists from bleeding. I fished my phone out of my pocket and called for an ambulance. I was trembling, sobbing.

"Please Oikawa, please don't do this, please don't leave." I cry as I pulled him to my chest, embracing him. "I'm sorry I left you alone. I'm so sorry. Please, please don't leave me. I love you." I whisper to him again and again, hoping it would wake him up...

~ one month time skip ~

It's been a month since the incident, but it feels like it was just yesterday. I wake up to the same dream again, a bloody Oikawa in my arms. I stumble out of bed, dreading another day of school.

After school, I saw Makki and Mattsun jogging towards me.

"You look like shit," Makki greets me.

"I feel like shit," I reply, monotonous.

"That dream again?" Mattsun asks, to which I reply with a nod. We all just stood there in silence until Makki decides to speak up.

"You visiting him today?" I reply with a single nod again.

"Tell him we miss him."

"I will," I say to Mattsun and walk away.

"Wait!" Makki calls out, "When will you come back?"

I just look at him, then down, "I don't think I can..." I whisper, loud enough for them to hear, and turned back around, walking away.

If you hadn't guessed, I quit the team after the incident, and instead used that time to visit him after school. I just couldn't look at a volleyball without breaking down. Everything in that gym reminded me of him. All I'd see is that happy face of his whenever we'd score a point or win a game. And all I could think if I how I'd never see it again.

I place a couple of flower beside him and sit down.

"Just like any other day, today was shit. We had a Science quiz today, which I probably failed. I bumped into Makki and Mattsun a while ago. They miss you. The team misses you... I miss you... It's really quiet without you around... Remember that time when Makki called a ball but last minute he told you to get it? You didn't win that match did you? Sorry I can't update you with how the team is, I just can't go back in there. Not without you there. I can't play without you by my side...." My voice cracks and the tears no longer hold back. " I'm sorry I wasn't there for you. I'm sorry I was too late. Too late to stop you.. Too late to tell you how I feel.. I will always love you Tooru. I hope that you're happy wherever you are. I'll come find you again someday, okay? Just wait a little longer," I whisper as I lean down on his gravestone.

Goodbye...

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Hi! Please excuse any grammar or spelling mistakes. I literally wrote this at 5am with 0 sleep. I felt really crummy so I decided to write this :)
Took longer than I expected, but it did turn out better. I'll probably update this once in a blue moon cause I'll be focusing on my other book (ples check it out) and I take in SOME requests, depending on ship and my ability to perceive the story. I hope this made you feel even a bit sad :) Until next chapter,

~ S ♡