Lady and the Tramp

11. Matters of the heart

Matters of the heart

I was shock still...

I...I...I don't even know what to think, how to process what i just heard, not that it was a bad thing or anything but you know it was unexpected

Lena was still standing in front of me with that hard look still on her face, but had another more hurt look in her eyes

She turned and walked to her bed sitting down, dragging her legs up hugging them to her chest

She looked so small, like a little child being sad, I couldn't keep looking at her being like that, just snap out of it and help her, it was aprtly your fault so fix it

I walked to her bed and sat next to her, not talking at all, i didn't know what i should be saying to her, she had all the rights in the world to be like that but this was all a misunderstanding nothing more, nothing less

I mean Kara just had a dream and started getting a little touchy and kissy, she could very well be dreaming about Lena while doing that or maybe it was like a reflex, she had gotten used to them sleeping together

OH...

That's were Lena was disappearing in the night, she was going to Kara's room to sleep together, since Kara didn't have a roommate it was the perfect guise for them to have some privacy from any prying eyes

That was so...cute, romantic, i don't have the right word to describe it...maybe the right one might be love but I didn't know if it was true

I took a deep breath, opening my mouth to say something to her but she spoke first

"You know, I know Kara for about 4 years now, our parents knew one another due to a close friend of theirs and before that it was just Lex and I, but then Alex came along and we became really close friends, that was before Kara was adopted by the Danvers', she was always so kind and nice and just the perfect child, I was jealous of her, my mother always hated me for some reason, but her kindness always pushed away those feelings, she was the big sister i always wanted, even though we were the same age. Kara was adopted that year and Alex was actually a big sister to someone and she was so good, I was jealous of Kara for having Alex and was a little hostile towards her, even though I knew what she was going through, i am adopted too you know, yeah I am and i had so much hatred in me while growing up, mother was a cause but it was mostly me and all that i channeled it towards Kara, no one else just her. One day, Alex found me shouting to Kara and took me outside to talk to me, even though I wasn't that kind of nice she talked to me calmly explained what had gone through and jsut made me realise that we weren't that kind of different you know and we just clicked, ever since that day Kara and I have been inseparable, we talk about everything, we are each others strength and weakness and when i figured that she had you know what i just...I dont know"

Tears were streaming down her face, she didn't bother wiping them she just kept crying

I put my arm around her shoulders and pulled her for hug trying to comfort her, I guess she didn't care that she was mad at me at the moment she just needed the comfort

I held her there for a few minutes but i pulled back turned her face towards me and tried to explain what happened in the most sincere way I could

"Lena i understand what this situation would make you feel like but...no just listen to me ok...I am not trying to make any excuses or anything but please just listen to me ok, hm, ok, you know what happened yesterday yeah and you were here when I left to go talk to Kara right?ok so we talked and then watched some movies and i fell asleep with her on the bed, in the morning I woke up before her and she like squeezing pretty hard and holding me tight and I wanted to pee so hard thta i tried to wake her up but i couldn't, then i thought what would kara do anything about and of course food came to mind so i started whispering in her ear about food so she started waking up and then started nuzzling my neck and then kissing me but she woke up and started freaking out and panicking and then I came here and you know what happened. Lena nothing happened between us she probably thought I was you or something like that, i mean you slip out at nights and go sleep with her am I right?"