The view here never fails to give me peace of mind, I thought to myself. From this bench where I'm currently resting, I admired the sunset just as beautiful as the sunrise after dawn. The bright clouds as soft as the cotton are slowly fading like heaven is already calling for them to go home.
My sorrounding is unusually quiet it seems like the universe knows what I really need right now. I breathed heavily and roamed my eyes around. My sharp eyes quickly landed on two people sitting meters away from me. I squinted my eyes.
My heart sank down 6 feet underground.
I felt my knees go weak.
My feelings is like a roller coaster
I never,
ever
expected him
to see here
with another woman.
I felt like my heart is being ripped apart like a thin piece of paper,
After 7 years. After 7 long painful years of not seeing him, not reaching out for him, not having any news about him, not hugging him, not staring at the depths of his beautiful black orbs,
I'm going to see him here
In this place where we held millions of memories,
In this place where we used to watch the sunrise and the sunset together, in this place where we used to have serious conversations, in this place where we used to meet whenever we need each other, in this place where we first exchanged Christmas gifts and in this very place where we first confessed our love to each other.
After 7 years of longing for his presence,
I'm going to see him here
With another woman.
There they are, doing the things me and Jimin used to do. Holding hands, sharing of laughters, watching the sun slowly sets,
My eyes sting. My tears are threatening to roll down. I cant stand seeing them two. I stood up not having the heart to continue watching this unexpected view.
Maybe Jimin completely moved on from me, from us, from the things we have built, from the things that once made us the happiest person.
Maybe it's time for me to do the same and permanently erase him from my life,
but how can I do that when whole of him is deeply carved in my heart?
