🌱~Dear Diary,~🌱

June 9th , 2017

Dear Diary,

So my mom just called.

She said that I needed to stay at her house two weeks in June , and two weeks in July. Now there's a few reasons I have an issue with this

1. Milly and Alice are coming to visit from California and Oregon , and I want to spend time with them while they're here.
2. Everytime I go she gets extremely verbally and emotionally abusive , I haven't even worked up the courage to go for one week , let alone two.

You see I've been looking into my mothers past with children and they all have this patttern. When kids around her are young , basically before they hit puberty, she's great with them , she never does anything to them but once they reach a certain age around my mother , she gets a completely different personality around them.

I'm about to turn thirteen, and things have gone wrong to say the least at my mothers house.

My age is usually the age kids start to leave my mother, but I can't do that. See , I have this baby sister Leah, and I can't let her go through what I go through with my mother. For most of Leah's life , I've been more her mom than our actual mom. For about the first two years of her life (she's three now) , my mom was a bad alcoholic and I was always taking care of Leah when my mom still had costody of me.

Listen, I'm gonna get Leah out of that house before she's 11 or I'm gonna die trying. I know it seems extream to say something like that but my mom has tried to kill me before. I'm not exaggerating.

I don't know. It's a mess with my mom.

Every single time I do litterally anything around her there's something wrong with it. Every time. She's still hung up on the fact that when I told the judge she was an alcoholic, i told her that i didn't say anything. I was nine years old and i was scared because she had tried to strangle me earlier that week.

Ugh.

Bye Diary,