Killua x reader Oneshots!

Promise Me?

*Spoiler Alert for the Chimera Ant Arc!*

        "Just, just stay there. Okay? Stay there, please." In front of me, Killua Zoldyck was begging me to stay where I was.

"What about you and Gon!? I can't just abandon you guys! I can not just sit here while the both of you fight...." Trailing off at the end of my sentence, I looked down at the ground, not being able to take the burning desperation in Killua's eyes. 

We had no idea what would happen tonight. 

Who wouldn't make it, we didn't know.

What we would lose, no clue at all.

"(Y/N).....Look at me." I heard his voice demand. Someone has got to save Gon, I knew that, but I was so afraid I would lose the both of them at the same time. 

I slowly looked up, I looked up to the boy I love. To the boy I was afraid of losing. I saw the desperation in his eyes to save his best friend. I knew I was in the way, I knew Gon could die because of me. At the same time, I was also afraid that Killua would die too. If Gon and Killua both died then who would I have?!

His eyes glistened in the moonlight, a stray tear falling out of his sapphire orbs. I stretched my hand out and wiped the tear away, "Stay safe Killua. I will stay here, just because you asked me."

Killua's face brightened a little, in admiration and something I couldn't really solve. "Thank you (Y/N), thank you so much." He turned around, his back facing me, and activated Godspeed. I looked down at the ground solemnly, until, something struck in my mind.

I called out to stop him from leaving. He turned around and faced me, turning off his Godspeed, "What?" Killua asked gently while stepping closer to me. I walked up to him and stopped right in front of the boy. I gently combined our hands and held them close to my heart, he looked at me shocked. 

His eyes had widened and his mouth gaped a bit, "Killua, promise me something." he swallowed and nodded his head.

Killua's eyes had returned to their normal size, his hair was messed up a bit, and his lips pursed together. I looked at him, looking at all his imperfections and flaws. To me, they were nothing but beautiful but would he ever know that? No, he wouldn't.

I sighed tiredly, I was tired of this crap, this feeling of danger. I was tired.

I let my grasp on his hands go and leaned my head on his chest. I could hear his beating heart, I noticed it had fastened a little. I curled my hands around his back, giving him a hug. I felt him hesitantly put his hands around me.

"Promise me, Killua," I whispered into his shirt, clutching his back for strength to continue.

"Promise me you will come back safe. Promise me you will come back for me. Promise me you will help Gon." Tears ran down my face, soaking his shirts cloth.

He didn't say anything for a while, but his grasp on me tightened. "A-and," I had to swallow before I could talk clearly. "And I....I..." 

Back then, I didn't know whether I should've confessed to him. Looking back on it, I wish I did, for the future wasn't pretty.

 I wish I had known that.

I cleared my throat, "Good luck, Killua." looking up at him as I said it with as much strength as I could muster. His clear blue eyes were looking straight down at me, we looked into each other's eyes for what felt like centuries but was probably only a minute. 

Killua reached out and wiped my tears away for me, his hand falling back to me.

I closed my eyes and leaned up, pressing my lips against his. I felt him kiss back and for a moment I was happy, leaning back, I looked up at him. "Go, you baka! Go save Gon. Save him for his sake, yours, and mine." I pushed him away teasingly, he grinned slightly and waved to me.