-Sorry I haven't wrote in a while I've been distracted with other things but I'm back now so...read on
Well after a hard and long day at school I'm in the same spot I was yesterday...In my room, on the floor, spell book in one hand and my "spell bowl" or "cauldron" (or whatever the hell you call bowls used for mixing magic) in front of my lap. I promised myself I would do my homework and thank goodness I did so I now have extra time to make my spell. Now even knowing how angry I was and still am with Jacob, my feelings are still stirring in my heart, because theirs no denying m obvious attraction to him. And the only way for this plan to work is if I have no feelings for him and since I cant seem to do be able to do that myself , my magic has to do it for me. Its not a permanent spell, an analogy would be like putting make up over a scar, I'm just "covering" the feelings until I have executed my plan, thoroughly. The spell that will do the job perfectly is called "Heart Reversal" and it has an instant effect. As instructed in the book I shut the lights off, and gathered my ingredients. I crushed up the almonds and the mint, throwing it in the bowl. Then I carefully put in a slate of red-stained glass, that according to the book was supposed to represent my feelings. I took in a deep breath and just relaxed for a second. Then I whispered the incantation, and closed my eyes, not prepared for what was about to happen......
"The heart I have, has feelings for you, but this heart I renew those feelings have now become UNTRUE!" I said, exclaiming the last word. I opened my eyes and watched in awe as the stained glass was being lifted up by nothing but air and the raw will that I felt flowing through me. As the seemingly tornado of cold swept around the room , the red glass was being drained of its color, still hanging in the air. This could only mean that the red being drained out of the glass meant that the feelings were being drained out of my heart. Suddenly, right where my chest was I felt a dull pain, then the dull pain just as quickly advanced into a ripping sensation. The pain had me knocked on the floor, gasping for air. The glass, now washed of its color, was now clear. While the slate of glass fell on the floor, the red color that had been wiped from it, was now hovering in the air, resembling Kool-Aid. The pain I felt was my smallest concerned compared to the liquid that had started racing towards me, it raced to my chest and plunged into my heart. I could feel it pumping through my veins and racing in my blood, making my pulse quicken. I felt pain everywhere, in my head, my toes, my legs, as my chest tightened every second. I felt like my heart was going to explode! I reeled in pain on the floor and my back arched, and tears rushed down my face. Then at the climax of my pain, a rainbow of colors, flowed from my chest. About thirty feet of reds ,blues ,greens, and purples inched from my chest and my pain eased. The colors swirled around me, and engulfed me, then on the colors I saw pictures of Cesar, him walking in the park, playing with his brother, running down the football field and one of him talking to me. It was like a movie of my memories of him. The pictures flashed continuously for another couple of minutes as I calmed down. Then the pictures started disappearing one by one and were gone as quickly as they had come. As I saw the last picture almost disappear, I forced myself to get up. I dragged myself across the room, I needed to get to that picture, my mind told me. I stood in front of it and took in his appearance, from his smile to his bright eyes, and watched as it disappeared forever. All the pictures, all the memories, all the feelings were gone. I was like an empty box. The rainbow swirls raced towards me again aiming for my heart when it hit its designated spot I sputtered, and not being able to take it anymore, I fell to the ground. Black spots filled my vision, then all of a sudden, everything went dark.
