"You wouldn't understand. No one does." Thomas said
"And why wouldn't we?" Minho asked
"You just won't!" Thomas snapped kicking and squirming all of a sudden "All you guys say is: it wasn't your fault! It's wicked's! You don't have to blame yourself! But guess what?! I do blame my self and theirs nothing you can do about it!"
Minho and Newt held Thomas firm on the ground, but they were completely shocked about what Thomas had just said.
Thomas then stopped. He looked like himself all of a sudden and took control over his body. He relaxed once again and gave that look. The look of apology.
"Tommy, was that the...'voice' again?...." Newt asked
Thomas slowly nodded his head
"You need to do something, tie me up! Lock me somewhere! I want to kill myself but I don't want people getting hurt if I do it!" Thomas sobbed
Newt and Minho looked at each other, unsure of what to do
"I-I have control now...but I'll snap...you have to keep a close eye on me if at least one of you aren't by my side. If I can kill myself I would take that chance right now. To end my suffering. But I still...don't want to harm you guys in the process." Thomas carefully said
You idiot! You think they can help you now? They'll find someone. Someone different then you that
doesn't cause them harm! At least if you kill your self you can end not yours, but their suffering!
"No!" Thomas sobbed "you aren't right! I don't want to kill myself! I-I just tell people that so they would leave me alone! You control me sometimes! You keep telling me things that aren't true! But in the end you'll try your best to get what you want! To drive me crazy until I have the guts to do it! Till I kill myself!"
Thomas had broken down, forgetting Minho and Newt were right there
"You-your not trying to kill your self...?" Newt asked and Thomas had stopped in shock, he just had told them 1 more piece to his confusing secret puzzle, without being forced to.
Great. Nice going. Your stupid and insecure. It's better to end your life before it gets worse for not only you, but everyone around you!
"I..I" Thomas said, breaking down so much he could hardly speak, "I-it's....ju-just..."
"Talk Thomas. And do it with honestly. We can tell if you lie or are hiding something." Minho said
"It's...talking to me again..." Thomas muttered, sobbing "the voice....again.."
Thomas then sat up swiftly, being able to jump from Newt and Minho's grasp
"Why...why don't your let me kill myself!!" Thomas snapped
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You Can't Do This Alone
FanfictionThomas is in paradise with everyone who survived from wicked (after the death cure) but he still has thoughts about all the people who died to bring them here. He has sducidal thoughts and try's to kill himself. Luckily, Minho and Newt are dating hi...
