He stood there, holding a bundle of roses. You stared at him blankly.
"Can you leave us alone?" Jimin asked, towards Taehyung. Jin left the room but Taehyung didn't, Jimin looked at Taehyung.
"Sorry man, she tried suiciding too many times. I gotta stay in here, I don't trust you." Taehyung said, sticking his hands in his pockets, he pulled out ear phones and a newspaper, sat down on the floor and began to "mind" his own business.
"Get out?" You said, Jimin stared at you, his eyes pleading for forgiveness. You didn't want to listen to his empty apology, you didn't want to hear his voice, not even looking at him. He reached out to you.
"I don't want to hear it!" You screamed, you hit his hand away with your stitched arm, hard. It started to bleed again. Taehyung got up and pushed Jimin away. He grabbed a towel and pressed it against the opened area.
"Are you stupid?!" Taehyung screamed at you, "I told you not to use that arm!"
Jin ran in after all the ruckus, he grabbed a stunned looking Jimin and took him out the room. Taehyung kneeled down and soaked the blood with the towel.
"You okay?" He asked, you nodded. You still loved him, and you knew it, but you couldn't forgive him of his actions. You were hurt by one thing, and you saw it as your life. As soon as you found out, your world fell apart. Your sanity fell apart, your heart fell apart, you fell apart. But you were scared, scared to go through those changes, scared to believe in a lie called love.
"It's okay to move on." Taehyung whispered, as if he could read your mind. You looked up at him and smiled a bit, then you stared at his eyes. His eyes reminded you of Jimin, he had one monolid eyelid, and you thought of Jimin right away. Without realizing, you had tears in your eyes and they started to fall. Taehyung looked startled, but he didn't say anything.
"I-I'm sorry..." You said, you wiped your tears with both hands, not realizing you were using your injured arm. Taehyung gently brought your arms down and stared at you.
"You must still really love him." Taehyung said, that brought tears to your eyes. "Although I don't know the situation between you and him, I can see that you love him even though you act like you hate him." He continued.
You broke down, you couldn't count how many times you had broke down that week. Taehyung hugged you, embraced your sadness, he lent you a shoulder to cry on. After your session of crying, Taehyung left your room because you had fallen asleep. Hoseok stood in front of the door with his hands on his hips.
"Don't you think that would be considered cheating on your girl?" Hoseok asked, Taehyung shook his head and smiled.
"No, she'll understand. I know she will." Taehyung said, he knew how his girlfriend was.
-----------------3 Days Later----------------
You went to the bathroom without being advised by Taehyung or by Jin, you had kind of got over the suicide phase. Your mom and Seul Gi came to the hospital but Hoseok prevented them from coming to see you. You heard someone entering the bathroom, a familiar voice. You got out the bathroom, didn't care if she saw you or not.
"Eonni!" Her voice bounced against the bathroom walls. You pulled up your IV stand closer to you and washed your hands. You ignored her, until she pushed you.
"Why are you avoiding us, we're family!" She screamed angrily and you. You glared at her and it made her stumble back.
"I'm not your sister anymore." You said angrily, holding your IV stand tightly. You took a step closer to her.
"Are you going to keep playing dumb with me? You and mom?" You asked, Seul Gi bumped against the wall and left the bathroom. You took a deep breath and you knew she'd be back in soon, with your mom. You decided to confront them about the situation. Seul Gi walked in with your mom.
"You slut!" Your mom screamed at you, you smirked and listened to the curses that came out of her mouth, nodding to most of them.
"So im the slut?" You started to laugh at the nonsense. You stepped up to them. "Was it fun fucking my boyfriend behind my back?"
Your mom looked furious. "How could you accuse your family like this?!" Jimin ran inside, you scoffed and laughed.
"Why are you here?" You asked, reached out to you. "Don't fucking touch me with your filthy hands."
"Mom, remember on Jimin's birthday..." you started "When he FUCKED you against that closet that I was hiding in?!" Feeling the anger surge through you, you felt like destroying everything. "YOU HAVE NO FUCKING RIGHT TO CALL ME A FUCKING SLUT, YOU FUCKING BITCH!" You screamed.
"Eonni, why are you acting like this?!" Seul Gi asked, you pointed at her.
"YOU HAVE NO SAY IN THIS ARGUMENT. I SAW WHEN HE GRABBED YOUR ASS AND YOU ENJOYED THAT SHIT. IT MUST BE SO FUN FUCKING UP MY LIFE ISNT IT. YOU DIDN'T THINK I'D FIND OUT ONE DAY?" You caught a glimpse of Jimin's face expressions, all filled with hurt and guilt. "TWO FUCKING YEARS." You said, staring at him in his eyes. This was the first time he had heard you curse so much at once, you hardly ever cursed and you were hardly ever mad.
"Oh right..." You said, staring at Jimin in the eyes. "Don't forget that I heard my friends talking about their encounters with you." You paused, then you glared.
"Was it fun fucking them in the bathroom at work? Was it fun knowing that I was probably in the next stall? Was cheating on me with the people I 'trusted' bring excitement to you?" Emphasizing the "Trusted". Your mom looked furious and she brought up her purse and whacked you, right in the face. You bit your tongue and could taste the iron from the blood, it stung painfully. You spoke and your teeth were dyed with blood.
"Yeah? That hurts? Of course it does." You said, then you spat on the floor. "It doesn't hurt as much as you hurt me." You said, your mom brought up her bag but you caught it right in time before she struck you in the face with it again.
Unfortunately, your wound opened and it began to bleed, fast. The blood dripped to the floor, staining the ground with fresh blood. You held on to her bag, tighter as she tried to pull away.
"Don't forget what you've done to me." You said to her, but only you and Jimin knew that you were talking to him and only him the whole time. Hoseok, Taehyung, and Jin walked in, pushing past Jimin and the two women towards you.
"Are you stupid?!" Taehyung shrieked. Jin took your arm and wrapped it in his doctor coat. "You're never going to heal if you keep this up." Jin said, softly unlike Taehyung. You felt so relieved to see them. Hoseok forced Jimin and your mom and sister out, calling security to escort them out the hospital. Hoseok came back and damn he looked mad.
"How many times are you going to hurt yourself?!" Hoseok asked, he let out a big sigh shook his head.
"Do we have to stick you in a straight jacket?" Taehyung asked, Jin punched him in the side. Tears began to form and Taehyung's face went blank.
"Here it comes, she's gonna cry about him again." He mumbled, Jin socked him in the stomach again.
"Thank you..." You sobbed. -- Jin cleaned you up and you went back to your room. You felt horrible, couldn't count how many times they stitched you back up. You closed your eyes and thought to yourself.
"Will there be a reason for you to live?"
-- [1 week later] --
You got out of the hospital, you had hired people to move your things to your new apartment. And when you got there, everything was perfect. You thought about Hoseok, Taehyung, and Jin. You got really close to them all even though it was just one week. You had to wait another 4 months until you got your stitches out.
You woke up and it was time to go to work, you put on a sexy work skirt and a white long sleeved blouse tucked inside the skirt. You beautified yourself, you were single now, you didn't care what people thought of you, at least not anymore. You curled your hair, and you were set to go to work.
Grabbing your keys and your purse, and files, you made your way to your car and drove to work. You got to work and walked in with your head up high, and proud, no one would know that you were almost dying the last two weeks over a guy you were in love with.
You strut your way to your office, greeting everyone as you walked by. You knew that you were looking good, and this is how you were going to look from now on. "Slay everyday." was your new motto.
You stopped at a certain cube, holding you bag and folders in had, flashed your best smile and said
"Good Morning Manager Park."
YOU ARE READING
A Reason To Live
Fanfiction! Mentions Su!cide ! You find out that your boyfriend of 4 years had an affair. You had been planning to get married soon. How do you deal with the pain and how do you move on from this? Is there even a reason to live anymore?
