Ethan Dolan Imagines

win or lose ❁

i just thought i had to say something. i was reading these imagines yesterday, and they're so specific on race. on my imagines, i don't specify on race, i do realize that they're are a lot of races, but i just make mine not racial, if that makes sense. i don't care about making them interracial or anything like that, they're just here so you-whichever race you may be-can freely imagine yourself with ethan aka papi chulo.

but i do make my imagines on girls, but if you're a boy reader, let me know! i'll write boy x boy if you need me to! it doesn't matter to me.
boys need loving too.

☽♛☾

"y/n? hey, are you okay? i came over as fast as i could," ethan pants as he enters your room with his hands at his sides.

"no," you admit. "im not," tears fill your eye as you stare out your window.

"tell me what's wrong," he sits next to you on your bed and places his hand on your cheek. you sniff and look at him. he gives you a smile.

"i feel a million things at once. it feels like im drowning and there's no one willing to save me, but they're all surrounding slowly watching me drown," you breath in as he takes his hand off your cheek. "it feels like my world is caving in. i feel sad, and mad all at the same time.

"im feeling like-i don't know. it's the worst kind of sadness, the type you can't describe. i just-i can't," tears finally leave your eyes as you struggle to continue on. ethan holds you in his arms as you cry on his shoulder.

"i feel so worthless. im just scum on the bottom of shoes, im nothing. and when i feel this way, it takes a while for me to get out of it. it lasts for days until i finally shake out of it. and i-i don't know how to feel. i think that's what's messing me up the most. i don't know how to feel anything."

"y/n, breath for me, okay?" you breath in and out. "i don't really know what to say, it sounds like your at war with yourself and im sorry. all i can promise you is that i'll be here for you. whether you win or lose, i'll be there to catch you, y/n. always."