Physco - Grayson Dolan

Fuck feelings

Constance pov
   What is a feeling? what makes us so fucked up in the head that we would actually die for someone when in the end they wouldn't even care to know one of our favorite songs?

  fuck feelings man, all they do is tear you up from the beginning, they make you grow flowers in your lungs and brain and it makes it so hard to breathe and think to where you will do anything to have that high again.

   I sat here thinking about Grayson and the other day, my feelings are really high and floating in the air right now but something feel down in the pit of my stomach tells me this love isn't a good idea.

   I needed a walk outside so grabbed my cigs and my shoes and walked down the steps.

   I got to the bottom of the steps and I see broken beer bottles all over the floor and torn up flower petals all over the floor.

  I got the broom and cleaned it up, I went to the kitchen to see a note on my refrigerator.

I rolled my eyes and didn't even walk over too it, because I already knew what it said.

I walked down the porch and got my cigs out.
It was a beautiful day in cali.

As I was walking down the streets I walked past a coffee shop and Saw a mom and a daughter fighting over a flavor of coffee, i Remember when me and my mom would fight over little shit, now all we do is fight over how many men she brings over a night and then try and act like my "dad".

  I walked past my job and looked inside, Grayson was there.

There goes my butterflies again, I walked inside and I saw him looking at the Metallica records.

"Hey" I said in a shaky voice, damn will this ever go away?!?

  He turned around and smiled really big

  "Hey" he smiled and his cheeks meet with his eyes and his big dimple showed. Damn I'm melting.

  "What are you doing here? I asked

"Well I was just about to go meet up with some friends do you wanna come?"

  "I would love too" I smiled

   He took me by my hand and we walked outside.
  
  I took my free hand and took out a cig and lit it up. I could feel Grayson looking at me in lust.

   "Hey could i have one?" He asked

I took the one out of my mouth and gave it too him.

   We got too his friends house and they all came outside.

  They all looked at Grayson weird, I wonder what that was all about.

  "Hey guys this is Constance, Constance this is Derek, Steve, and my brother Ethan" gray said

"Hey it's really nice too meet you" they all said and smiled

"Hey, you too!"

"Hey gray let's go to the normal spot" Ethan said

We all started walking and in about 10 min we all ended up in a dark alley.

"You ready?" They all asked me

"Ready for what?" I asked confused

  "The thrill of hang with us" Derek said

  "I mean I gu-" I couldn't finish my sentence before I heard men laughing, and it wasn't any of the boys around me it was men behind me.

   "Grayson, Ethan, Steve, and Derek, I see you guys have came back for more trouble" I hear an old man say

I turned around and noticed it was that man me and gray saw from the other night.

"And you have a toy" that same man said while pulling out a gun.

My heart stopped, i couldn't breathe or move, I was stuck in my own too feet.

"Run" Grayson said

We all started to run as fast as we could, my legs burning because I'm out of shape.

I followed Grayson into some deep woods, I started to head gun shots and my legs ran faster but my heart fell deeper.

I screamed Grayson's name because I was running Behind everyone, he stopped and picked me up and ran even faster.

  I can't believe what's happening right now, I hung on tight to gray and wished I was some where else right now, I knew this love is going to be bad but I can't help it I'm addicted.

It's been hours since we heard gun shots, we got a hotel and I'm currently laying on gray right now, we got our own room bc they boys didn't want too see any nasty stuff, like Grayson wanted to do anything with me anyways.

He was playing with my hair and humming in my ear, one leg is between his 2 legs.

He kept playing with my hair and I was slowly falling asleep until I heard something I wasn't suppose to hear, 3 words that he shouldn't be saying right now. 3 words that will change everything.

He whispers in my ear thinking I'm asleep

I. Love. You.