Physco - Grayson Dolan

Chapter 5

Constance pov
   "But if I sing along a little fucking louder to a happy song"
 

     My second favorite band started to play aka my alarm clock to wake me up back to reality. Aka also fucking hell

   I rolled out of bed and started to get ready for school.

  I go to my closet and pull out a long sleeve grey shirt with a pair of ripped black skinny jeans and my high top vans.

      I walk downstairs to see another note left on the refrigerator I ignore it because I'm use to the same old bull Shit everyday any.

     I walk out the door and walked down the steps and dreading another day of school.

   While walking down the roads of California all I could think about was Grayson.

   Man of man Grayson. the badass who loves the same bands as me. Through out the entire conversation all I could think about was kissing him but I know it will never happen he probably only See's me has a friend anyways.

       I huffed and lit up a cigarette, I wish I had friends. It's so lonely all the damn time and there's no one to talk to.

             I let the cigarette burn my lungs while I inhale the flames. I started smoking a couple years later when my dad died when the depression hit me even harder, like I said it takes away the anxiety.

        I open the double doors to west Morris high and walk to my locker.

       Out the corner of my eye I see Pennsylvania walking towards me

   " aww are  you looking for a friend to hang with?" She says in a sarcastic voice
    I look at her and say
"Aww are u looking for a guy so you can suck his dick" I say in a bitch voice

        She looks at me with a shut the fuck up face while her friends are behind her trying not to laugh.

    I smile to myself and open my locker.
  
     people got quiet for a little bit and all you could her was ms. Wallester down the hallway screaming at some kid for not kissing her ass.

      I felt hot mint breathe on the back of my neck. I turned around and only to see Grayson standing really close to me.

     I breath got stuck in my throat and my eyes became wider and my heart and legs suddenly stop working.

   "Excuse me your in my way to my locker" he says, he sounds kinda pissed

"Oh sorry" I say in a very shy voice

    Everybody stops starting and start doing there own thing.

    " she's going to be the next Vanessa I see it" as I heard someone wishper behind me.

     Who the hell is that? I thought to my self.

    "So gray-" I say before being cutted off by him
"Don't fucking talk to me okay? I don't like you so don't think I do. We aren't friends and we will never be". And with that he walks off.

   
    I'm flabbergasted, I can not believe he just said that.

"HAHAHAHA" I hear Pennsylvania behind me. "Even you can't get the freak of him self you really are the loser" she laughs and her friends laugh and so does everybody else.

   
      I run to the bathroom and I start to cry really hard.

   I don't even know why I try, even someone who is exactly like me I can't even get, I can't even have a family or friends.

     I pulled out a blade from my bag and start to cut. This one is for Grayson, this one if for dad, this one is for the bitches who I fucking hate. man I need a cigarette.

      Before you know it I have 7 new scars ontop of my old ones, I rinse up and dry them has much has  I can. I pull down my sleeve and walk out the bathroom.

     I haven't seen Grayson all day, I thought walking to myself after school.

    I walk up the steps into my house to see my mom is there, wow I'm surprised.

  I walk in the kitchen and my mom was standing there with a man wrapped around her finger. wtf?!  I thought to myself

   "Um mom who's this? "

"Oh honey this is Williams my new boyfriend"

    He looked like a person who would be in a band. he had Shaggy brown hair, tattoos all around his arms. He wore black skinny jeans as tight has mine and he has piercing blue eyes.

    I rolled my eyes I was pissed she has been trying to replace dad but it's not going to happen.

   I walk up the steps and took my blade out and started to cut again. The pain will never go away.

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