Constance pov
* back in high school we use to take is slow*
I groaned and slowly started to open my eyes only to hear my favorite band singing to me aka my Alarm clock. Great time to get up I thought to my self.
The first day of school, yay another depressing day in the life of Constance Santiago. I moved around my bed to get the courage to get up. I slowly rolled out of bed wishing I didn't have to go spend another year with judgmental fuckers who only care about themselves and there designer makeup.
I slowly rolled out of my bed, letting my feet touch the soft carpet as they scrapped across the floor and right on into the shower. After my shower I put on my black leggings and my long sleeve nirvana t shirt to cover up my scars from the night before I looked at them and huffed there was still fresh blood in the scars but it made me feel more alive knowing the pain was real. I put on my doc martens, grab my bookbag and I was out the door.
My parents wasn't home or should I say "parent". It's just me and my mom. My dad died when I was six with cancer. I never got to really know him because I was too young. But that's another reason to my depression because some times a girl always needs her dad you know?
I had to walk 7 blocks to school. I didn't mind it thought, I needed to get fresh air, the Grief my mom still has from dad is still rising in the air and it gets stuffy after a while.
As I walked down the streets of California I saw couples holding hands and it just makes me wish my mom had that. I huffed, and went into my bookbag to grab my cigarettes and my lighter and lit it up. Smoking makes my anxiety go away. I puffed on it a few more times and threw it on the ground and stomped on it. I looked up on the steps of school and slowing made my way up them. Another depressing day here goes nothing.
THANK YOU FOR READING MY FIRST CHAPTER I KNOW ITS BORING FOR RIGHT NOW BUT I PROMISE IT WILL GET BETTER!! AND LONGER CHAPTERS NEXT TIME AND GRAYSON WILL BE HERE SOON I PROMISE Xoxo gossip girl- Mikala 😗
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Physco - Grayson Dolan
FanfictionThis book has a lot of sex, drugs, cuss words, depression and self harming don't read if your sentimental to this types of stuff!
