The Love Lost Within

Getting Through It

Faith POV

It was almost time for me to leave the hospital. I've been down because I really wanted the twins and Jacob could tell that I was sad "Baby you okay?" He asked "I'm fine" I said "No you're not, tell me what's on your mind" he said "It's just....I really wanted to have twins" I said crying "Baby look at me, it's not your fault that the baby didn't make it, you can't keep blaming yourself for losing the baby" he said holding me "Maybe if I would've listened to you then she would've made it" I said looking down "Faith please stop talking like that, it hurts me too okay, yes the baby didn't make it but we still have each other and we have a baby boy too" he said "I'm sorry" I said looking down "It's alright, you coming home tomorrow what do you say we let my parents watch the baby just to clear your mind" he said "Seems a little too early" I said "Hey, it's only right, after all my mom offered to babysit any time" he said "Alright, not so soon tho" I said "Okay well I have to go so what type of pleasure would you like?" He asked licking his lips and looking at me "Jacob don't start anything" I said "okay I won't, come here" he said grabbing my chin and kissing me "I love you" I said "I love you more" he said walking out.

Jacob POV

Faith isn't the only one suffering from the loss of the baby, I was so excited about the babies but maybe it's what God wanted to happen. My phone started ringing "What up Tony, what needs to be done at the office?" I asked "You do realize that you don't need to come in today, go.... spend time..... with Faith" Tony said "Took a while for you to get that sentence out" I said "Hey Jacob, part of that stuttering was my fault" Tyler said "Wow, y'all is some nasty ass peo- wait a minute are you at the office?" I asked "Yea, well in my office lock the door and-" I cut him off "Please stop right there" I said "Alright" he said "See y'all later, and stop doing that in the office" I said I refuse to listen to them have sex, especially in the office. I needed to vent to somebody so I decided to drive to my parents house and make a few arrangements.

Faith POV

I was sitting in the hospital room with Hezekiah "You look just like your father" I said looking at him "If only your sister was able to be here with you I wonder who she would've looked like" he started yawning "You're very special to us especially to your father, he loves you" he was smiling "Don't worry, he'll be around one day when you're woke" I love my son "You're a good baby, and I'm glad that you're finally here" I said. Kenneth and Victoria walked into the room "Hey girl" Victoria said walking in "Oh my goodness, hey Victoria, how are you, do you mind if I speak to my brother privately?" I asked "I'm great, and sure you can" she said stepping out "Really Kenneth, my secretary?" I asked "Look I didn't know how to tell you" he said "She's a very sweet girl, and I swear if you break her heart, I will cut off your dick" I said "Calm down lil sis, I won't screw up with her, she means a lot to me and so does my penis so please relax" he said "Alright, just checking" I said "Can I hold my nephew?" He asked "Sure you can hold him" I said "Can Victoria come back in?" He asked "Yea, bring her in here" I said. "I'm sorry Faith, I wanted to tell you but you I didn't know how to, you were bed resting an-" I cut her off "It's okay Vicki, Kenneth should have told me about this so when I get the strength, that's his ass" she laughed "Well I bought you a gift, I had family business to attend to when you had your baby shower so I waited for today" she said "Awwwwwww thank you, you're so sweet, I leave the hospital tomorrow thank God" I said "I bet you feel relieved" she said smiling "Yes, and I'm very sleepy, Kenneth is he sleep?" I asked "Yea he sleep why?" He asked "Yes, I can go to sleep now" I said "Okay, well we'll be on our way, see you later" Victoria said they left and I drifted off to sleep.

Jacob POV

I went to my parents house "Jacob, honey why aren't you at work?" My mom asked "I took today off, I needed to come speak with you two but dad isn't here but I'm okay with you" I said "What's the matter?" My mom asked "My baby girl didn't make it mom, that's what's wrong" I said "Son come here, now you listen to me boy, it's okay to be sad, but you can't mope around in that sadness for forever. Sometimes we go through things that we don't understand but it only makes us stronger" she said sternly "I'm sorry mamma, can you just pray for me?" I asked her "Sure honey, I'll pray for you" she said. After the prayer I felt relieved "One more thing mom, tomorrow Faith gets out the hospital do you think you can babysit for us?" I asked "Of course, I understand that Faith will be exhausted from the baby's schedule, but I don't wanna take him away for too long" she said "Yea, you're right" I said "She needs her rest" she said looking at me laughing "She gone get som rest mom" I said holding my hands up smirking. After a few more minutes I left and drove to the hospital.

Faith POV

I was sleep and heard the door open, my eyes flew open and I instantly looked at my baby's bed "Baby relax, it's just me" Jacob said "You scared me" I said he walked over to me "I missed you, and I missed my son too" he said walking over to me "Awwww we missed you too, he was woke and once he went to sleep that's when I went to sleep an-" he cut me off with a tongue kiss "I can't wait til tomorrow, my mom agreed to babysit, so you can get some rest and other things" he said "You are so nasty Mr.Johnson" I said "You haven't seen nasty yet, wait til tomorrow" he said "You just had to come in here on your freaky level, really?" I asked him "Baby I miss you, it's been what, a few months plus some weeks since I hit that. Don't worry I'll be gentle " he said smiling "You gone have me to yourself tomorrow, don't damage my vagina please, I'm still sore." I said laughing. "Alright baby, get some rest, you won't get much later" he said. Jacob is something else, I love him and he's just a good man I wonder what's taking place tomorrow. I really hope that sex isn't on the menu, I feel like I pushed out a watermelon and it tore me to shreds.

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