Love stories that didn't happen

• It is time to welcome the anger •

Unfortunately, I gave those people power over me and my feelings. They made me feel like I am the bad one here, like I am the villain of the story.

They made me sad, they made me cry. They made me scared about the future, they made me hate it all. They made me feel guilty but they could never make me apologize. Simply, because it was not my part to apologize. I am not the villain here.

And finally, I became strong enough to see the truth. Finally, I got mad, I got angry, I got furious.

Angry at them for stealing years of my life. For appearing in form of nightmares. For telling me, I am a piece of shit. For making themselves feel great by pulling me down. And it is my right to be angry. It's not childish to block toxic people out of my life.

Still, at the very moment when I was strong enough for the first time to make the right decision, they got me again. They told me it is a stupid and selfish decision. And once again subconsciously I believed them. Right when I thought I was over them, they just got me again. It is not my fault but it is a shame.

However, that is in the past now. I reacted flawlessly and correctly. And without doubt, the morons, the beasts, the monsters wanted me to think the opposite. They wanted me to think it was immature and ignorant. But I am not falling for their shit anymore. I am better now. Once and for all recognized my worth.
And now it is me who has the power. It is me taking over the nightmares by yelling at them how I should have done it in the first place. It is me they should be missing. And it is me who is going on with life like the confident and good-hearted woman they never let me see I was.

And they can only watch me from afar.