Wildflowers Don't Exist [Completed]

Blanket Flower

Adonis Pov

It's been two days since Ares showed up at prom and my phone has been ringing off the hook. I left Naomi, Morgan, Ares, Ree, Shasta, and Thena on read.

Ares: Adonis, I'm so sorry for everything I've done to you , we need to discuss the other night

Naomi: Adonis! Why won't you answer the phone? I miss you

Morgan: Why did you leave? Was it something I did wrong? I know I can't dance, but you didn't have to leave . Lol jk , please text back

Ree: Girl , where have you been? Spring break this week and we're planning on going to the beach

Shasta: Bitch you doing too much , how you gone leave and not tell your girls what's going on?

Thena: We're worried about you

Naomi: Adonis!

Naomi: Adonis Denae!

Naomi: Why won't you answer us? :(

Naomi: Remember college responses come back this week

Ares: Adonis

Ares: Adonis I'm so freaking sorry .... I know it may take some time for you to forgive me but I need you to hear me out

Ares: I know your boyfriend might feel confused and all ...

Ares: okay that's it

Ares: I'm leaving out today ... If you don't want to see me , that's fine . Just know I really love you ... your intellectual conversation, your beauty, everything

Ares: I left you a package in the mail in case you don't see me , I'll send it once I get stationed

3 Missed Calls (Thena, Shasta, Ree)
7 Missed Calls (Naomi)
2 Missed Calls (Morgan)
20 Missed Calls (Ares)

I decided to go downstairs and check my mail. The letters from the school I wanted to go to came. "Ma! The college info is here!"

She walks in the room. "Okay, baby, open it up."

I shake and read the letters.

Wait listed.

Wait listed.

Wait listed.

Wait listed.

I could go on and on. I cried on my mother's shoulder. I don't understand. Will I just fail at everything my whole life?  I'm an utter failure, the one thing I did have - my brains - couldn't even get me into my top pick.

"It's okay, sweetheart. You don't have to go off to college this fall, you can go in the spring."

With my credentials ? Wait listed? Was it because I wasn't doing enough? Is my GPA too low?

Or are you just too fat?

I ran back upstairs and seen that everyone else got into where they wanted. They've posted their acceptance letters on Snapchat and Instagram. I log out knowing that with my huge class, these posts can go on for days on end.

My mom walks into the room. "Hey, you got accepted into Spelman."

"Spelman?" I forgot I even applied there. I don't know how I exactly feel about HBCUs, but I'm still upset about it.

She hands me the letter. When she leaves, I toss it. Don't get me wrong, there's nothing wrong with black colleges, or female colleges, but I applied there as a backup. I wanted my top pick, and that's ironic I won't get mines like I'll never be anyone else's.

I need to take a walk because everything is too heavy for me right now. It's too much at once for me.

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I sort out my feelings. Morgan has just returned in my life, and I like his laid back vibe.

Ares was there to protect me. He gave me a different energy. He has his life together, but for him to disappear and show up out of nowhere telling me I won't see him for a while ...

I didn't get into the colleges I wanted.

I sigh.

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Months Later

"I'm fine, Ma!" I say as I carry my boxes to my dorm. I decided to go to Spelman. Me and Morgan are still friends and I write Ares occasionally.

"My baby's in college!"

I laugh.

Hopefully , I learn to grow spiritually as a woman here. There's so many beautiful ebony people here and the men at Morehouse are to die for, in a good way. I say my goodbyes to Mom and prepare for the unknown. I watch as a few girls walk by in Daisy Dukes and tank tops while I grab my protruding belly. See, I only notice it when I notice how beautiful everyone else is and how easy it is for them to lose weight. They never gained it to begin with! As they laugh , I mentally cry as I touch my Tiger marks. I even suck at positivity.