sO the last update, i was really sad, i was logging off and i was just done with everything, i had just got out of a mentally abusive relationship built on jealousy, and i was not okay for a long time, he was honestly terrible to me, he was so controlling and i hated it, i was so scared when he used to text me bc i knew he wanted something and if i didn't do it he'd leave me, eventually i could change conversation so i didn't have to do anything but it was one of the worst relationships of my life, and i regret it so so much.
a month later, someone i thought i could trust started dating my ex boyfriend, i didn't want him around mostly because i knew he was just using her to try and get to me again and it was an awful feeling bc i loved this person and wanted her to be happy.
my suspicions were confirmed when he dumped her like she was nothing and started coming after me again.
saying things like "no boy wants to hear about your problems" "you should've just killed your self last year" "these are the exact reasons i dumped you."
i didn't want this boy around because honestly i was scared of him, for so so long.
but now, i'm finally happy.
i found a boy, who actually loves me, for me.
and he tells me how perfect i am, and how he will make sure no one hurts me.
i don't know if this relationship will last for long, but i really hope it will, because this is the happiest a girl like me has ever been and i just want to thank you guys for all the love and support you've given me throughout these hard times.
most of the time writing was my only escape, and i'm so happy something has come out of it.
i love you guys so so much, and don't change for anyone.
with love, Emily.
