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"Taeyeon, where is your head at?" Sooyoung asked, all the girls were looking back at me.
"I'm sorry..." I mumbled softly through the white medicial mask covering the lower part of my face. "I just don't feel like myself today..."
I missed up another move in the choreography that we have been working on for at least a month now. I should have it down. I guess not today.
"Taeyeon if you don't feel well just rest. It's okay." Sunny voiced out. "The rest of us can teach Yoona the moves she needs to know." Sunny looked around at everyone else. They nodded at her words in agreement. We were brought in today to teach Yoona the moves she missed because of her individual scheducle.
Tiffany walked over to me and smiled. She lightly pushed on my back to sit down on the black leather couch. "Yesterday was a long night. We have this covered. Don't worry." I don't oppose her.
She walks back to the others and they contuine dancing like before without me.
No matter how much I wanted to join them and push aside my thoughts. My mind wasn't in the right place. Everytime I looked at myself in the mirror on the practice room wall. The white mask on my face reminded me of what I was hidding. Last night something happened. Something that lead to a bruise decorated on my cheek and a pain in my head that needed painkillers to rid of.
The physical pain was gone but the memory of him made the pills useless. The pain was still there.
The girls didn't question a thing when they saw me already here in the morning. I arrived around 5 in the morning because I wanted to leave before Minjae woke up. I couldn't be there. I barely slept through the night. Half the time I was just enduring the pain and staring at the clock. While Minjae laid on his side peacefully sleeping.
I couldn't stay not after that. Have him think I was okay with what he did when I wasn't.
The other members showed up at the time we were told which was around 7. They wondered if I was sick because of the mask. I lied to them and didn't tell them otherwise.
I didn't know what else to say. How could I tell them about Minjae and I? The reason behind the mask.
The rest of the girls practiced for the next two hours while I reminded lost in thought. Occasionally being pulled into the dance to show where I was position at a certain part.
Yoona caught on to the dance quickly. It took until lunch for her to learn the parts she missed.
Finishing up the members gathered together on the floor. It was a ritual since pre-debut days for us to sit in a circle after practice.
Sometimes we would talk about our lives or sit in comfortable silence enjoying each other's presence. This was no exception.
I listen quietly as they talk about the award show, Yoona's drama filming, and Sunny's radio show.
The chatting stops once the practice room door creaks open. The sound of rusting plastic papers sounds behind me. The delicious aroma of Beef Bulgogi wafted into my nose.
A smile splits across the members' lips as they point their eyes at me.
"I brought food." A surprisedly pleasant voice said. My head snaps up but I don't look to the person.
"What a pleasant surprise." Tiffany uncrossed her legs and got to her feet.
The other members followed suit leaving me alone on the dance floor. No words spilling from my mouth.
"Why didn't you tell us your hubby was bring food?" Yoona asked and I look over at her but I don't speak.
"She didn't know. I wanted to surprise you all." He pulled her attention and the other's. He smiles at them.
I get to my feet, crossing my arms over my chest. The members take the plastic bags from Minjae's hands and they take it to the couch, leaving Minjae and I behind standing apart from each other.
I feel his stare burning into my back. "Taeyeon." He calls softly. Too softly that his words from last night reappear in my mind. I close my eyes and the events replay in my mind.
I feel his presence in front of me.
"Jagiya." He sighs. I internally sigh, opening my eyes to him.
His lips are pressed together into a light frown and his orbs crestfallen in remorse, "Can we talk?"
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Taeyeon is going through some conflicting feelings. She still hasn't told the other members what is really going on with her. Minjae has shown up once again unannounced. What do you think he is going to do or say?
-MoonBae 🌸
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