loving someone ❁ matty healy and halsey

her balaclava is starting to chafe

Ashley and I sat in the coffee shop for a good three, maybe four, hours, just talking about everything, our family, our music, our friends.

I was curious to meet the guy with the LSD, Zach, so I asked her could we go see him. She laughed and took my hand and led me back to the train station.

We sat on the bench waiting for the next train.

"Why do you wanna meet Zach?"

"Honestly?"

"Mmh"

"I wanna get fucking high"

She laughed again and gave me a hug "I like you Matty, I'm so glad you wanted to get to know me"

I chucked and hugged her back, neither of us letting go until the train pulled into the station. Then, she took my hand and led me on, before we sat down inside and resumed the hugging again.

"Can I just say you're fucking gorgeous Ashley?" I said softly

"Thank you" she whispered "you're not so bad yourself"

We got the train to Bedstuy and still holding my hand, Ashley led us through a maze of brick walled buildings to an apartment block on the upper east side with brick walls and a black front door.

She knocked twice and a guy opened it. He has black hair and he was thin, thin face, thin body. He stood with a cigarette in one hand and a beer in the other.

"Ashleyyyyy" he said "Come in"
Then he paused "who's this?"

"This is Matty. Matty, this is Zach. Zach, Matty wants to get high"

Zach laughed loudly "Aw, come on in dude"

We followed him inside. The place reeked of weed and alcohol, a bit like my own place. It was a fucking mess but I really didn't care, the smell of weed was getting to me and I needed some.

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Ashley, Zach and I sat on his sofa and fucking laughed and laughed until we cried and then, the cries of laughter turned into cries of sorrow and sadness.

Soon enough, Ashley was in my arms, softly crying into my chest. Her face crumbled like a pastry, her balaclava, the mask she had on, was beginning to chafe around the edges.

"Matty, I'm so bad at love" she sobbed.

"But you should be loving someone. Someone should be loving you"

"But no-one wants to I'm fucking insane"

I want to

But I kept my thought to myself and just pulled her closer to me, tightening my grip to hold her together and to keep her from falling apart.