G.A.D

Chapter 17

Panic attack after panic attack hit me.

Danny is pregnant.

Danny is fucking knocked up... with my fucking child no less!

What the actual fuck!

This was not as planned.

This can not be happening.

I tried to settle down so Steve and I could do as planned, but I just couldn't get my stomach to settle and the room to stop spinning. It felt like I was having a bad trip from too many drugs.

I couldn't handle it.

So Steve took me home.

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A week has passed and I still can't breath, still can't stop crying, still can't stop shaking, still can't eat, and still can't sleep.

I don't know why I let this happen.

I don't understand how any of this happened.

Danny and I were protected.

Danny can't even get pregnant!

She told me that the first time we met!

How?!

I've been sitting in my room for a solid week asking that.

How?

How did Danny get pregnant when she told me she couldn't?

How am I going to take care of two kids?

How am I going to pay for school?

How am I going to pay for food?

How am I going to pay for anything now? I only planned for one...

How is Harry going to react when he finally wakes up from Sty's grip?

How am I going to handle Harry and Danny?

I can't figure out anything at the moment and since I can't stop thinking... more panic attacks follow.

I can't seem to do anything.

Everyone has tried to help me... but I can't stop feeling panicked.

I honestly don't know what to do or how to handle this whole mess...

If anyone is out there... anyone at all... help me figure this out. Help me get on my feet again. Help me see clearer. Help me gain back breath. Help my mind slow from racing. Help me be alright again.

I don't want to go down another dark hole.

Please someone... God... anyone... help me get through this.
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I know this is a very short chapter... but I only wanted to show Louis' thoughts about the baby in this... just raw emotion.

Next week will be a normal update.