Half A Heart // ziam

chapter thirteen

[ hello :)) I was thinking of doing a flashback chapter next update? ]

*Zayn's POV*

"No wait, let me get this clear- you want to break it off with Perrie?" Louis asked; eyes wide and filled with confusion. He stared at me like I had gone right out of my mind. I simply replied to his question with a nod which just caused him to widen his eyes more. 

"Oh god, what's gotten into you?" He groaned. 

"We just aren't working out anymore" I answered with a shrug. 

"This is about Liam. God, I thought you were happy with Perrie. I thought you moved on!" Louis pointed out with glare. Something about his expression told me he hated what he was hearing like...like he didn't want me going back to Liam. 

Of course, Louis wouldn't want me back with Liam; no one would. All I ever do is end up hurting him and most certainly, I will again; who knows if this time it will be different or not. 

"I don't what's going to happen between Liam and I. That's not the reason why I want to break things off anyway, yes, it is partly the reason but I just don't want to drag Perrie along my mess, I want to let her go and find someone who deserves her love." I explained. Louis still had that frown on his face; he still didn't like this but his expression barely just softened up making me relax.

"I don't want Liam hurt" He stated, folding his arms over his chest.

"I promise--"

"Just because you finally come to your senses and realize that you are still hopelessly in love with Liam doesn't give you the right to just go barging into Liam's life. As much as he still loves you, he still nee--"

"Wait, what did you say?" I interuppted; I couldn't hear the sound of my own voice over the piercing sound of my heart thumping. Even the thought of it brought a grin to my face.

"I said, you can't go barging into Liam's life. Listen will y--"

"No after that, what did you say after that?" 

"After what? Oh...yeah. Liam still loves you, sadly, but yes, he still does; maybe even more than before but that does not give you the right to try and get back with him. You have to think about what Liam wants, what Liam thinks about thi--"

"About what?"

Shit. 

Louis and I froze before our heads snapped towards the doorway where Liam was; he was avoiding my eyes, choosing to stare at Louis instead. I try not to let it get to me but it does. The fact that I played with his emotions so much that Liam can't even bare to have his eyes on me. Maybe Louis was wrong- maybe Liam wasn't love with me. 

And maybe, he never will be. 

"Louis?" Liam tried again; his eyes piercing into Louis. Louis couldn't answer, he couldn't say anything, if he did, he will only have a furious Liam to deal with. 

"I want to break things off with Perrie" I announced. Louis' head diverted towards and he is shaking his head; I knew I shouldn't have said it but something inside me wanted Liam to know. Liam had to know that I was still in love with him - with every ounce of me. 

"Right, I am off" Louis mumbled before he brushed Liam and out of the door. 

For the first time since he stepped into the room, Liam's eyes locked with mine; narrowed and curious like he was trying to figure out my exact thoughts. He must have because he looked away just a second later. 

"I am sorry to hear that" He replied softly but the small chuckle that followed his answer told me he was anything but sorry. 

I shrugged; I take a step closer to Liam, not at all liking the distant between us. Visibly, Liam gulped before his eyes locked with mine again. It's different than before. This time I get to see what Liam wants, what he needs. It's me. 

He just isn't ready to have me back and I am okay with that. I am okay with giving us both some time, sort things out. 

"I love you" I whispered, my hands reach out for Liam arm and I am pulling him towards me; closing off that tiny bit distance seperating us. He doesn't object , just lets me take the lead, "God. I love you. I love you so fucking much"

I feel Liam's arms grab hold of my shirt, his hands clutching onto the fabric firm and tight; his eyes gaze up at me with the so much intensity that I can't help it. I can't hold myself together. My hands steadily reach down to his back to pull him close to me; my temple pushed against his own with his cold, minty breath blowing softly over my parted lips. 

"I love you" I reminded him before I surge forward and push my lips against his. Wanting to savour the feel of Liam's lips; my lips worked harshly, pulling and biting at the shell of Liam's skin. He kissed back just as furiously with his hands desperately grasping at the material of my t-shirt like he was afraid that this was just a dream - like I was just a dream and he will have to wake up any minute. 

[ Don't get too happy, this does not mean that Ziam will be together.  I don't even know with this chapter. God, it was horrible. I am sorry. I tried my best but yeah. also, sorry for any typos or errors. I am in the worse mood ever. ]

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