[ hello :) how are you guys??? sorry for the late update ^-^ been busy so yeah. This chapter carries on from the last on from chapter 13 not from chapter 14 because it was a flash back ]
*Zayn's POV*
"YOU WHAT?" Harry yelled, stopping in his tracks as he whipped around to face me. If looks could kill, I would be dead, "Please tell me this is a fucking dream. What is wrong with you Malik?"
"I couldn't help it he was there and I finally realized what I had been feeling all along and I couldn't help it- I kissed him" I shrugged, twirling the mug in my hands around slowly. i could Harry's eyes on me but I refused to meet them.
"There is something else. Did you say anything? yeah, okay. What did you say?" Harry demanded as he sat down opposite me.
"I may have told him that I love him...several times" I choked out; the memory of that moment almost brought out a huge grin to my face but I forced it away. Harry wouldn't be so grateful right now. I almost expect Harry burst out shouting again but he stayed calm, if anything I was sure he was going to smile himself.
"And did Li say anything?" He asked, eyebrow raised. I shook my head no.
"But he didn't pull away so that is a good sign, right?"
"Zayn he ran out of the room after you two pulled away and then proceeded to run out of the house crying. You want to tell me what's a good sign?" Harry questioned, "Not to mentioned you are fucking engaged to someone! Seriously, what were you thinking"
"I wasn-"
"Oh that's right. You weren't!" Harry snapped. He pushed his head between his hands and I could hear him breathing in and out furiously almost as if he was forcing himself to calm down - to not shout at me.
"I wouldn't take it back if I could, I don't regret it. I meant it" I said, sounding quite defensive. But I couldn't care less. If Harry thought that it was just in the moment thing than if was wrong. I had been thinking. I wanted to do that and I, very well wanted Liam to know about how I felt - I loved him.
"I know" Harry spoke up, softly.
"I am going to break up with Perrie" I informed him; Harry nodded, almost as he had been expecting to hear that. For some reason that comforted me, knowing that Harry along with Louis approved with the decision. I knew that I wasn't making a huge mistake by doing this.
"It's about time" Harry said, "Niall and I already knew something like this was going to happen. Especially with Liam and you being in the same house. It was bound to. Whatever Liam and you had was special and some massive break up just wasn't going to be the end of it. We figured you would get back together somehow"
Harry grinned, at last. His eyes becoming that colour of soft green again.
Before the conversation could go any further, the floor door creaked open; I almost hoped it would be Liam. I was scared though; what if he decided he wanted nothing to do with me? That it would be better if the two of us never saw each other again.
"Zayn, babe?" It was Perrie. Without realizing it, I breathed out in relief. I just wasn't ready to face Liam yet; I guess we both needed that bit of time to figure things out. Maybe, I needed to use this time to sort everything out with Perrie; break off everything.
"Hey" I greeted. My arms wrapped loosely around her before he pulled away, grinning shortly at Harry. It made my stomach turn unplesantly- I didn't want to hurt her but dragging her along in this relationship would just be worse.
As if knowing fully well what I was about to do, Harry pushed a thumb up towards and grinned before he excused himself out.
"Pez, we need to talk" I start off. Perrie instantly nodded like she had been expecting this. It didn't surprise not after the last talk we had; not after how distant the two of us have been lately.
"This is about the conversation we had the other day, isn't it?" She asked with a slight smile. God, I loved her. How could she be so understanding, how could she not loose her patience with me?
"Yeah, you were right--"
"I am always right, sweetheart" She interrupted with a comforting smile.
"I am not over Liam"
"You never were"
"Right. We kissed earlier on- It didn't exactly end up well, I guess. Li ran away. But I wanted to talk to you about this. I don't think I can do us anymore. It wouldn't be fair on either of us, especially on you. We...we need to break things off between us" I whispered; making my voice as quite as possible.
"I know. I was hoping you would be the one to break things off. If you hadn't in this week than I was going. I didn't want to lock you down with our relationship" Perrie replied as she took hold of my hands.
"So we are okay, here?" I asked; I swifted closer to her.
"Perfect" Perrie slipped off the ring of her finger and handed it to me, "For that someone, obviously you can't give this to Liam" She chuckled.
I rolled my eyes before I wrapped my arms around her and hugged her firmly, "Thank you"
[ so yeah, hope that was okay. I duno. sorry for any errors or typos. ]
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