After school, Everyone and I went out for food while also playing games at the local arcades. I think coming back to school was a good thing because I didn't release how much I missed everyone until this very moment as I found myself looking out onto the sky while the sunset before my very eyes.
I began to notice a presence next to me but I didn't look to see who it was, the street had a faint smell of food and mixed with it was the scent of flowers. This is my last year and I don't want to have any regrets, I took in a depth breath and closed my eyes to feel the remainder of the heat in the air. " You look at peace Gavin " and I just smiled in response because for once I felt like I can walk to the beat of my own drum " I am, at this moment I can let everything go, everything I've had to deal with over the last few months". I turned on my heels to walk back in the arcade " I hope everything is well with you Ryan " I turned my head to him " And your new lover ".
Ryan seemed shocked at my comment " Gavin ...I'm sorry " but I just smiled " Congratulations" before walking away and throwing my bag over my shoulder. I was done pretending, we were never going to become a thing, I was just kidding myself. I quickly walked to my car and I could see Ryan and Micheal arguing while Jack was Holding Ray back, "I'm Sorry ".
I drove myself to the mall, thinking it was time I got some new clothes. I walked into H&M saw a few lose shirts and Ripped Jeans which I liked. I spent an hour in the store before heading home, I was at a time in my life where I felt like I needed a change, I was stood in my room trying on a few of the new items I got and trying to style them well.
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(Yes its suga from bts .... I just love his style)
I had decided to go with the Leather jacket and ripped jeans for tomorrow and I forgot I had put autoplay on youtube. A song came on and I smiled because it felt like the song was speaking to my soul, I looked over to see it was a band called Day6 "Congratulations English Cover ". I didn't find myself feeling sad or sorry for myself, I just got changed and walked downstairs to see my family all asleep on the sofa while I worked out in the gym. This had become a habit over the last month while mum and Millie were asleep I would work out.
I don't know how long I had been down here until I heard my phone ring" I took one look at the caller ID "Ryan", Part of me wanted to answer but I knew it was best I didn't answer. I just let it ring and I briefly saw the time "11 pm, I guess I should take a shower and sleep". I went to bed and for the first time I didn't know how to feel, this day has been filled with different emotions and different thoughts, I don't know where to stand but all I can do is go forward.
