New Beginning

Chapter 3

i layed in bed until my door was kicked up open " ryan hurry the fuck up i need you to drive me to school " i was sick of ashley shit " No ashley you can walk to school .. and anyway i dont have lesson today so im not taking you .. so fuck off " she made some weird noises before shouting for my mom " Mom james wont take me to school " .

i heard foot steps before i saw my mom " James why wont you take her to school " i sat up " well to be honest .. she thinks that everyone will do everyhing at her will when she says so ... she can walk to school becuase im not wasting money i worked for to drive her to school .. when its a only a 10 mintue walk from here ... and ashley " she looked at me " you could use to lose the weight .. and getting a bit round " i started laughing and my mom laughed a little " James your a dick " she jumped on me and tried hitting me ... but she was to weak so i throw her over my shoulder and dropped her by the door .

" Go on ashley .. your gunna be late " she swore at me as my mom came down " ASHLEY FAITH HAYWOOD .... your grounded .. " she tried to get out of it like normal but it wasnt working and huffed then she left for school " James .. dont you have school " i laughed " yeah i olnly told her no so i didnt have to take her " my mom laughed " nice one " .

" my mom was down to earth knew how to have a laugh and shit but break her rules then your in trouble " So mom is dad gunna be home for the start of the football season " my mum sighed " i dont know sweetie .. now hurry up i need to get ready for work " .

i grabbed some clothes before running up stairs and packing my gym bag before getting in my car and driving to school when i saw something .. or should i say someone walking down . " Gavin .. is that you " the lad turned to me " Oh hey ryan ... what do ya need " i couldnt help but " do you need a ride " .. i could tell he was hesitent to say yes " Um ok " .

He jumped in and we were off.... There was some awkwardness so i put on the radio and The ready set. Give me your hand was playing "i love this song " Gavin said.. We both laughed.

"me too " i went to town the air con on but we both ended up touching hands. i pulled back and countied driving .

when we got to school i got out and opened the boot to grab my stuff , i heard the car dor shut and as i looked up there was no sign of gavin " hmm wierd " . i strolled into school and thought the halls getting a few whistles from the girls and the guy ... to be honest i liked it .. it fed my ego .

The cheerleaders walked over to me " Soo Ryan who was that lad you drove to school with " .. it wasnt any cheerleaders it was my friends lindsay , meg and ashley .. yeah i know my sister is called ashley but who cares . they were giggling " SO spill ryan " meg said i laughed " Well its your cheer buddy " i didnt say anymore " bye ladies " meg was giggling to her self .

i walked to my locker and i saw a note taped to it , i didnt have time to open it so i put it in my jacket pocket before shoving my gym bag into my locker before grabbing my school bag .

i sat down in my english class next to micheal , ray and jack ... but i didnt see gavin " isnt gavin in our class " i turned to micheal " yeah .. i dunno where he is " i heard laughing . He walked in with meg with his arms wrapped around her... did it hurt .. fuck yeah alot " Ryan are you ok " i heard jack say into my ear " im fucking fine " i said grinding my teeth together .. i was more angry then upset .. even tho it hurt

Gavins P.O.V

i had just left ryans car and i walked to my locker to put my stuff away for first lesson it was english .. when i saw a cheerleader run up to me " oh god no " but as she got closer i knew who it was " oh my god ... he totally like you .. " i was confused " Meg .. huh what are you talking about ."

she was jumping up and down " Ryan fucking haywood ... likes you " she shouted i coverd her mouth .. " meg calm down .. " the bell went " come lets get to class " i put my arm on her shoulder and dragged her to class when i got there i saw ryan he looked pissed but i dont know why .

micheal singaled me over and i left meg and sat next to him " whats up micheal " he didnt say anything ... neither did the lads .. it was like this for the rest of the lesson .

the lesson finished and was the last one to leave but when i was leaving i was slamed against some lockers " What the fuck do you think your doing " it was micheal " How dare to hit on my sister like that " ." m..micheal we are friends " he was mad " BULLSHIT .. JUST FUCKING LEAVE HER ALONE " he shouted at me .. i looked down the hall to see ryan , ray and jack the all looked dissapointed .micheal had let go of me and i just ran ... i ran home i didnt want to deal with them .. not today anything but today .

i got home and my mum was still out side doing her thing ... so i walked to my room and sat on my bed .. i let the tears fall not giving care at all . i pulled out a box from under my bed to pull out a blade .

( SORRY THIS IS MAY BE TRIGGING .. IM SOORRYY BUT .. IM JUST SORRY :) )

I pulled of my hoodie and i just cried as i pulled it across my skin .. i didnt want to end but i wanted it hurt ..so everything started going black ... before i heard screaming then i was gone .

i am alone with my mind .. for once its peaceful but when i woke up it was bright and i could hear crying and voices .

" umm hmm " i started to get a hold of what happend .. and i opend my eyes fully to see my dad and mum both crying ... but no sign of millie .. just doctors " Mr free your wake " he was shocked .

i was red headed girl run into the room " gavin your ok .. i thought i had lost you " i laughed " how long have i been out " i asked she cried " About a week " we had a long conversation and im getting councelling and shit like that ... ive been allowed home so that great doc say i can go to school tomorrow but i dont want to but i have to.

~~ next day ~~

i woke up and showerd then got dressed before heading down stairs to have some breakfast . i looked at the time before getting up and leaving .

i walked to school and i saw ryans car drive past me and he had some girl sat in the car .. she had black hair . i walked to class which happend to be Art and Photography ... i loved making things in slow motation .

i sat in the back not really wantng to take to anyone when a lad sat next to me " Hey gav " i turned to see ray i just smiled at him . we said nothing for the whole lesson but when i got up to go to my next lesson i was tripped up " thats for hurting my best friend " i was confused but i picked my self up and went on with my day . i put my earphones in and started listening to in this moment Adrenalize and i got alot of werid look from the school walking thought the halls but i just brushed them off like normal . i saw meg she just looked at me ... like i was nothing so i walked into history and took in the bulling before i knew it it was lunch .. so i sat on my own in the back on the lunch hall . i watched ryan and his group walk over to me .

" so brity boy ... why did you skip school last week " micheal said .. i didnt look at them .. or even answer " answer me " he shouted .. i still didnt " you piece of shit .. answer me " he shouted again when someone else shouted " Stop this now micheal ... its not fair that you put him in hospital is it now " i could tell micheal was shocked " .. gav ..is this true " .

i didnt answer i just got up and left " Gavin " i heard my name being shouted " Gavin .im sorry " i let the tears fall again and i went to sit outside away from everyone .

hey homies ... yeah sorry this was alittle different this time ... my brain wanted change it up so i went with the flow .. i hope you enjoyed it and ill try and make it better next time .. peace out guys :)