Fate (A Jikook Fanfiction)

Chapter 7

Jimin

Today I have to say how I feel. Jin and Suga have been pressuring me to do it since I mentioned what happened. It's been two days and Jungkook won't even look my way. Is this worth it?

Today is one of our stops on our Wings tour. While I'm excited, I know that this will either be the best or worse night of my life. Maybe if I hint him, I can find out for sure if he wants me, or if his ignorance means a good riddance.

We were all in the car, with me in the backseat with Suga and Tae, while Jungkook sat in front of us with Hoseok and Namjoon. He slept comfortably on Namjoon's shoulder whilst Namjoon talked to Jin. This time, I wasn't jealous because everyone knew Namjoon was with Jin, even if they liked to hide it.

Once we arrived at the venue and got out, everything came in a rush. We had to put on our show outfits and get our stage makeup done. I knew I'd have to wait until after the concert to confront him officially, but the anxiety of everything was welling up, and I wanted to hint Jungkook at what I feel before truly confessing to him. Maybe then I can get a hint, and I know just the way to do it.

As Jungkook was in the chair getting his makeup done, I patted his head and said, "Poor Jungkookie, looking so sleepy" I laughed.

He chuckled lightly, shrugging off my comment and proceeding to fall asleep. That was my first sign to back away. I sighed and went to sit with Suga, and he must have seen it happen because he patted my back and told me not to give up. Suga knows what I'm dealing with because he puts Hoseok through the same things. He pushes Hoseok away, but Hoseok knows better. He knows Suga isn't good at showing his heart any other way, so he's never left. The only difference is I don't know that Jungkookie is the same. Him and Suga aren't that alike, so when he pushes me away it hurts worse.

We all lined up to get ready for the concert, our stylists finishing their final touches. When we went out everyone screamed and cheered for us. Everyone got into place and we performed with all our hearts. Soon enough, we got to one of my favorite songs, 21st Century Girl. I loved this song because it's choreography allowed me to be closer to Jungkook. This time, I hugged him each time we could. He hugged me back, but it felt almost distant. Almost like he wasn't there. Strike two not to tell him.

After the concert, we all cleaned up our sweat and I decided to lay down on the couch, ironically, Jungkook was at the other end. I put my head on his shoulder, out of breath and waiting to make sure everyone got home safely (which is a habit of mine). As soon as I put my head down, Jungkook stood up, saying, "Sorry, I'll let you lay down hyung." Then he walked over to Tae, and was dancing with him. I felt jealousy in the pit of my stomach as all of our memories came back, and I suddenly felt myself move out of the room, hot tears streaming.

Quite frankly, I didn't care what anyone saw. Even Jungkook. He used me for his own desires and I let him do it. Now, he has the nerve to dance with somebody else. Not to mention it's Kim Taehyung. He has a lot of fans, and him and Jungkook have always been close. He knew it always struck a nerve in my body when we were together, but back then, he wouldn't make me worry. He would never do that to me.

Now, I know I have to move on.