Hurt

Chapter 8

I knew if I wanted to make sure that Chris would not find me I have to flee the country. If I stayed in the U.S. there will always be a risk of some pack seeing me and tip off Chris of my whereabouts. While I wrote down the two main things I needed Jenny to get for me, I think about how much my life has change. Who would have thought one day I would be asking for things to escape the person I once loved.

-Fake passport

-Scent masking perfume from Akiye.

Simple. Well sort of. I know getting the perfume from Akiye is going to be sort of tough for Jenny, but I really needed it. Akiye is a witch who lives in the forests in an unmarked territory. She's know for her various spells and potions, people swear her work truly works. Im hoping rumors are true.

I fold the paper and slip it into my sleeves. I casually make my way to the garden. I go to the farthest end of the garden, there is a bench next to it is a pot on each side. Its hard to see it, you have to be above ground or close by. In one of the pots i dig a small hole and gently put the paper there before lightly covering it. Once I give it one last pat, I quickly glance around to see if anyone was nearby. Thankfully it seems like nobody was here. I look at my watch and see its almost 6'o clock meaning dinner is soon.

I head to the dinning room, as I make my way to the seats I decided for once not cause trouble and just sit in the Luna seat. I wanted to have a peaceful dinner without Chris coming in here and being all demanding. I waited for other pack members to come in, and one by one they slowly began to fill up the table. Thankfully Jenny was the first to arrive.

"Did you write down what you need?

"Yes, I left it in the left pot next to the bench in the back of the garden for you."

"Ok, I'll go get it later when I feel its safe enough."

We left it at that, it would be to risky if anyone saw us talking to each other so much all of sudden. With that we wait a few more minutes until Jenny' s parents come in, and then Eddy and Ethan. Finally Chris decide to grace us with his presence. He sits and down and signals for the maids to serve dinner. Dinner was quiet as always, just the typical clatter of spoons and forks hitting the plates.

I break the silence by speaking to Chris. "Alpha Chris may we speak in your office alone after dinner."

He continue to eat before he looked up at me and just stared at me. He then gave me a small nod. I quietly mutter a "thank you". I can feel everyone's eyes on me, I look up and everybody seems surprised at my interaction with their alpha. They probably are wondering why I would want to talk to him alone after last nigh event.

I ignored them and continue on with my meal. As planned once we were done Chris and I headed to his office. He went in first and sat down on his chair, I closed the door behind us, but not before making sure nobody followed us.

"Thank you for taking your time to talk to me." I say as I sit down.

"I'm always free to speak to you. What did you want to talk about?"

"I wanted to talk about your mating plans and your - kids."

Chris's eyes widen at the mention of his children. I guess he didn't expect me to ever bring them up or even know about them.

"How do you know about the children?! I strictly prohibited anyone to mention then in front of you!"

"You tried to keep your kids hidden from me?! You didn't think that was something I should know about especially since you're talking about forcing me to mate with you?!"

"Not hidden! I was going to tell you but at the right moment!"

"Oh yea and when was that suppose to be, when they got here? Or when you mark me? When?!"

"It was going to be soon, actually tomorrow. I was going to do it then."

"Seriously? So you weren't even going to give me a heads up. Why would you think that's a good idea?"

He stayed silent.

"Tell me, how were you going to introduce me?
"Hey kids this is the person I'm planning to force my mark on and leave your mother for!" That's how?!"

"No! I was going to explain to them the situation in a way they would understand!"

"They are children! There's no other way they're going to understand! They only thing they're going to see is their FATHER leave their mother for some stranger!" 

"See this is why I didn't want to mention them to you! You're already making everything difficult add Jenny to it and now two more obstacles this is becoming more and more difficult!"

Did he just call his kids obstacles? How dare he, how can he be so cruel with his words.

"They're not obstacles, they are your KIDS!"

"Kids that I didn't even plan having especially not with Jenny!"

"Shut up! Whether or not you planned to have them they still are your kids. You knew what could happened when you engaged in sex! So don't act like you're some innocent child that didn't know any better!"

"Don't get me wrong I love my kids but they're painful for me to look at sometimes. Every time I look at them I wonder how it would have been if they were kids I had with you! And now that you're here all I could think about is creating a family with you."

"You have to get that idea out of your head. We can't have a family."

"I know you're still mad and angry and kids are the last thing you want with me but-"

"No seriously we can't. I'm unable to have kids."

"What do you mean you can't? Is it because of the alcohol and drugs? We can just get you to rehab and -"

"NO! I don't need rehab. I was injured so badly around my whole body. One of the things I can't do because of the injury is have kids. My uterus and around that area were severely damaged."

"You're lying! I know you're just saying that to get to me! I know you hate me but that's just too cruel!"

I sighed, I knew he was going to take news like this lightly. Nobody would, but it's better to break that dream of his now than later.  Seeing him in denial is pretty hard to look at. I want to comfort him but at the same time a small part of me fears that would give him the wrong idea.

I decided it was best for me to just leave.

"It's getting late, you need to process this, and you need enough sleep for tomorrow. So I'll be going now."

He didn't respond. I got up and made my way to the door. I looked back at him before I left. I understood his pain, but I can't help but also blame him for the events that lead to it.

After midnight...

I tried going to sleep once I got in but I kept tossing and turning. Something in the back of my mind is bugging me.

I knew it was pointless to continue and try falling asleep. I got up and put on some sweats and a thin sweater. I headed to the kitchen to make myself some coffee before heading out to the garden. 

The garden used to be my favorite place here.  It's where all the good things happened to me. Chris asked me out here, he asked for my hand here. Heck we even had our wedding here! That's how much I loved this place.

But now it's just a bittersweet reminder of what I once had. Oh how quickly things can change. Sometimes I wonder if it's just better if I kill myself. I wouldn't have to suffer anymore.

"We need to talk."