Hurt

Chapter 9

Chris P.O.V
"We need to talk." I say to Kyle.

He sighs, "What about?"

"You know what. About what you said to me earlier today. I need to know what you meant by it."

"Why? Is not going to change anything, wether you know or don't the damage is already done, there's nothing you'll be able to do."

"Please," I beg "just tell me."

He sighs one more time before facing me and for a few seconds he lets his guard down. In those seconds all I can see is pain and suffering in his eyes.

"Well I guess I'll start from the beginning. Well after I was banished I walked for a very long time, switching from human form to wolf form every so often. I tried to seek refugee in the nearby packs but it seemed you made it your mission to ruin that for me."

I did. I knew Kyle would try to stay in the surrounding packs, I was so hurt with what I thought he did, I called every pack in the US to ensure he wouldn't be able to find a place to stay.

"So of course one word from the great Alpha of the North and you become everyone's enemy. They beat me, every pack I came across would beat me before throwing me out."

He took a deep breath before he continued on.

"I was becoming weaker, my wolf was becoming weaker too. It had trouble healing me up, all my supernatural powers became weak. I was slowly loosing him."

"The last and finally attacked happened right before I found a place to settle. Are you sure you want to know what happened?"

Did I? Did I really want to know what he went through, can I handle what he was about to say?

"Yes."

He nodded his head and began, "Well that last pack like every other pack beat me, but this time they took it a step further. Once they got tired of beating me, they began to rape me. One after another after another. All I remember was my wolf and I calling out to you, to save us."

He took a small break before taking another deep breath and continuing.

"Once they were done they took a silver knife and stabbed, everywhere. I'm surprised they didn't stab me through the hurt and just end my life. As they dragged me to the road by wolf tried to heal but there was too much damage for him to heal at his state."

"They left me in the side of the road, like trash. I blacked out and when I woke up I was in some hospital."

I don't know if I should just let him stop there or continue on. I mean we're already this far might as well just rip the band aid off.

"The nurse was doing a routine check up and when she saw I had woken up she quickly went to retrieve the doctor. You know for a few seconds I thought I was finally safe, no longer being targeted. I was wrong. The doctor who came in was a werewolf. He began to laugh once he saw me."

"He described everything that happens to me, how bad the damage was. It wasn't until he delivered the last blow that I truly felt I lost myself. You know what he told me? He told me that during this whole ordeal I was two months pregnant. TWO! I was so too busy trying to survive that my wolf and I didn't even notice they precious life we were carrying!"

"The doctor went to say because of the damage I would no longer be able to bear children, but he said that I deserved that punishment. He laughed as he said this."

Kids? Kids! We were supposed to have kids! But they died.

"My kids were taken away from me as punishment for something I haven't done. Once the doctor left, I yanked out the wires that were on me and left. It was difficult for me but my wolf, with the last bit of strength it had , help me get to the town you found me in. He tried to stay, he was trying hold on but I knew he couldn't. I couldn't let myself be selfish so I let him go. So I didn't just lose a baby but I also lost my wolf.  I was alone."

I wasn't able to contain my tears anymore. I cried. Hearing what he gone through because of me, made me sick to my stomach.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry Kyle," I said as I got to my knees in front of him, " please forgive me, do whatever you want to me. Punish me for the sins that had began committed against you."

"What is done is done. There is nothing in this world that can happen to you that can equal to my pain. Not even death."

"Please Kyle, what can I do to gain your forgiveness?"

" You know what I want, is up to you to decide if you'll give it to me.

Kyle P.O.V

"Chris, I lost my child before I even got the chance to meet them, hug them, and kiss them. You have that, don't ruin it."

"It was my kid too!"

"Were they? Would you have believe me at that time If i ever brought it up to you?"

He stayed silent.

"Exactly. So they weren't yours."

I hope after this Chris let's me go and let's me live on.

"We can raise the kids together like they're our own. It won't be the same but it can be the family we almost had!"

"CHRIS! Are you hearing yourself? You expect to just take the kids away from their mother and act like nothing is weird?! Are you fucking crazy?! I got mine take away, what makes you think I'll do it to someone else?"

Chris is truly losing his mind! He's becoming very delusional.

"Chris you're not thinking straight, why don't you go to bed and just sleep on what I said, ok?"

I grab his hand, and I'm not going to lie but I do feel sad that I no longer feel sparks when I touch him. It just another reminder of what I no longer have.

I lead him to his room, we stand in front of his door and just stare at each other. Chris leaned down and tried to kiss me but I quickly moved.

"Chris stop."

He sighs and goes into his room and before closing his room he gives me one last sad look.