Loving Miss Hwang

Chapter 9

"So you don't have any intention to tell me about it?"

I bite my lower lip and cant look Taeyeon in her eyes. I felt guilty for not telling her about my problems.

"I-its not a b-big deal for me Tae, and I know its just a small problem."

"But still! I'm your best friend and your like a sister to me. You don't need to keep it a secret. And you getting married to that guy is a very very serious thing Tiffany!"

"I'm sorry Tae, promise, I tell you everything from now on"

"Yeah you should, and your gonna tell it now, tell me everything. Don't try to miss even one single detail."

I nod and tell her everything she wants to know. From how did Luhan became my fiancée. How I felt about him. About Nichkhun. And everything that happened. While telling her about it all, she's seriously listening and never interrupted me.

"So?? You already in love with Nichkhun before and until now but! You cant tell him that cause you're already engaged with Luhan. And you think that Nichkhun knows about the engagement but me? Your best friend don't have any idea."

I pouted as she I saw her disappointed. She has the right to get mad actually. We've been together for almost God knows years but I chose to keep a secret on her. She took a deep breath and seat in front of me.

"Whats your plan?"

I look at her confusing. Plan?? I don't even think about it. I don't have any plan!!!  And I wont do anything. I just cant.

"Uh-huh. Based on your expression you don't have any plan. Wow. Good job Tiff. Keep it up."

She said sarcastically. I'm scared of Taeyeon right now. I know she's just concerned about me.

" So it's ok to you, if you're gonna marry Luhan huh? Though, your in love with Khun. And I'm really sure Khun loves you too. Don't you think it's so unfair??"

"But, I cant do anything to stop this marriage Tae! My parents already agreed to this. And I cant disappointed them again! I want them to be proud of me! That finally!! I already made a good decision for them!"

A tear escape from my eyes as I remember how my parents always disappointed about me and everything that I do. And when I agreed to that marriage, for the first time, I heard those words that I wanted to hear.

"But...how about you? How about your own happiness Tiff?"

I just stare at her. She's right but I wont take that. This is my punishment. For what happened to her. I shouldn't be happy. And marrying Luhan wont really make me happy.

"Is this because of her Tiff??"

I look away on Taeyeon's gaze. Remembering what had happened to her makes me think that I deserve this kind of life. Because of me it happened to her. Guilt & pain is all over me.

"Tiffany...you know its not your fault"

"Do you really know what happened back then Tae?"

Tears started to fall from my eyes as I remembered that day.

"How will I know if you wont tell me the whole detail. All you just said is, its all your fault. But its not yours anyway. Your innocent Tiff"

"Im not Tae, and I know your just telling that because Im your friend and you hate her."

Taeyeon stunned and look away. She's silent for a moment and took a deep breath. I know I've been a bitch before and done something bad but it never cross  my mind to be worse. All I do its to insult someone and make them feel useless. I want them to feel what my parents make me feel. But everything's change now. When Jessica came. She came into my life and change me.  Not only me but also Taeyeon. The 3 of us became best friend until one day, she suddenly change. She's been cold and mean to us. We dont know why. One day, I saw Taeyeon crying.