Loving Miss Hwang

Chapter 14

TIFFANY

It's been a week since that hurtful confrontation between me, Luhan and Nichkhun happened. And it's been 2 days since Luhan decided to stop our supposed to be marriage. I'm happy for that of course. Finally! I can say that I'm totally free. But that doesn't change the fact that until now I cant totally be happy.

Before, I wanted to tell Luhan to stop the marriage, that I can't marry him. I don't want to. Because of Nichkhun. His the only reason why I want it to stop. Now that I'm totally free and can do whatever I want, it happened. And the worst part is, I'm not mad at him. Maybe I got mad but it ended so fast that I cant even believed it my self.

Maybe because I think I deserve it. I deserved Nichkhun's wrath. Because of me, he lost his best friend, he lost his love. Now, I do understand him. I understand him that it hurts so much. Lots of What if's flood my mind.

What if Jessica never died? Will Nichkhun and I meet? What if I never meet him? Will I fall to Luhan? What if Jessica never done those things? What if she really loves Taeyeon's brother? But she really does right? Will Nichkhun accept it?? What if she never hate us?

For now, I'm trying to enjoy everything, though there's really something lacking. I know what is it but I cant still face him. The pain is so fresh that every time I heard his name, I'm being out of my self again. And I think, its too early for that. I'm on my first step of moving on. Yes, I do understand him but that doesn't mean I will trust him again. That I wont do anything to move on. I need to moved on. I cant stay like this for the rest of my life. Sometimes, we can’t help feeling hurt, but being miserable is always our decision. And I dont want to be miserable.

In the first place, I'm the only one who is in love. Not him. He's just...using me..fooling me. And its killing me. My feelings for him is killing me. But deep inside I still hoping. Hoping that he really did love me .

How can I kill my feeling for him without killing myself??

"A penny for your thoughts?"

I went back to my senses when I heard Luhan's voice. I pouted when he sit beside me and he chuckled.

"Stop doing that duck face! It makes me want to kiss you"

I feel my cheeks burning and kicked his knee under the table.

"Yah! What took you so long?! I've been waiting for you almost an hour and a half!"

I let my frustration out but he just laugh at me. I really hate waiting for someone. My patience when it comes to waiting is just a minute or two then I'll go ahead. But this guy make me wait!! Not just a minute or two but hour! Can you believe how much patience I have for him?

"Chill. I'm sorry for that."

I raised my brow and narrowed my eyes then I smirk at him.

"You know. I dont accept sorry right?"

A bright smile form on his lips. Suddenly he fixed my things and carried my bag then grabbed my right arm.

"Where are we going?"

"You said you dont accept sorry for apology. Why dont you take it straight to the point babe? You just want a date with me"

He said smirking. I slap his arm hard but he just laugh at me again. Luhan and I are good friends. I guess?. Haha. I like having a conversation with him. His easy to be with. I never thought Luhan have this personality. Every time I'm with him, I feel happy, secured.