Special girl

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In college, I decided that I'm not going to look for love. It will come if it will come. But deep inside I was still hopeful.

I got crushes from time to time but nothing is as heart pumping like in my high school days.

I never had hope me and my crush will be in a relationship, it was simply that I found a guy interesting.

There were no sparks in college, no romance, I never caught any guys attention. I wasn't interesting.

I didnt want to hope again.

I keep saying to myself I don't care that I'm 22 and I've never been courted or had a date, there isnt a guy who told me he likes me.

But then my sister had a suitor.

I'm okay with it.

But I felt envious.

I want a boyfriend too.

No matter how much I tell myself I don't care, that it will happen when it have to happen.

I keep thinking, is there a problem with me.

Why don't boys like me.

But I already know I'm nothing special.

I'm not pretty, not ugly, not witty, not sexy. There is nothing interesting about me.