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I resigned.

I'm not a supervisor material yet so why stay.

And now I  have to start all over again.

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I met him again.

Crush.

He said I'm single because the one who asked him is my friend whom he like.

And I believed it hoping this time he'll look at me differently.

I also realized that I can force myself to be extremely sociable, that I can pretend really well that everything's okay inside of me.

I thought its been years I'm more mature now I'm in the point of my life that my insecurities doesn't affect me much. I thought I could handle my feelings really well by now I mean I'm much older.

I'm just kidding myself.

After the day I spent with him I went back being and feeling the teenage girl I was.

It'll pass I know in a few days I'll forget about it but I wish I just don't forget I wish I could also move past it.

But for now I cried to a friend the way I cried to her when we were in high school.

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