Meant to be?

11. Sorting out feelings

Janna Sofia Carter

"You should really listen to Mr. Finn right now." Jasmine whispered from behind me.

I looked at her and scowled. I pulled out a piece of paper and wrote, "You know me in math. I suck at it."

I passed the note from her. I pretend to listen to Mr. Finn seeing him write x and y and a and a whole other letters on the board. I don't understand any of it.

The paper got back to me. "You aren't trying. I'm rolling my eyes at you."

I sighed. Jasmine was smart. She wasn't the smartest in our school but she was smart enough and arguing with her about my futile attempt at math was certainly going nowhere.

"Scowling. Okay I'll try now don't write back if you expect me to listen." I put the paper at her table.

I could almost hear her eyes rolling. She knew me. She knew I wouldn't even try because that was me. When something hard comes my way, I don't waste my time on it. I run away from it. It sounds really deep but you get my way.

Math was our last subject for Thursdays, same as in Mondays. It was the only subject I naturally suck at. I tried not to be bad at it but as I've said, I'm not really patient on things I can't do so I just give up around it.

I glanced at the wall clock above the door. Five more minutes before end of class. I tapped my fingers on my table impatiently.

Eventually my thoughts head back to Harry. Yes, Harry Styles of One Direction. I fought the smile that was trying to surface around my face. I always do smile when I thought of him.

Last month when we finally fixed our things, everything came back to normal. Well as normal as it can be when you're friend with a super hot superstar and bachelor in London.

We were still in touch, sometimes he would call at me or I would call him other times we just sent each other messages. It was nothing important, just how our day goes and all that. Were just friends after all.

If you think I don't like him anymore, you're wrong. Because I still do like him but I guess, I just kind of accept that having him would be such a long shot for me.

Yes people I've finally finally FINALLY come to my senses and knew that I've been friendzone by the love of my life. I realized that dreaming about him with me wouldn't do me good and might as well be his friend than tantalize about him for the rest of my life. Atleast being friends with him was better than being fanzone right?

I still do hope that maybe one day he will realize he likes me and he will sweep me off my feet and tell me he loves me but come on, this isn't a fairy tale anymore, this isn't a fiction anymore. This was real life. I knew that was impossible but there nothing bad in hoping. I just buried my hopes underneath my acceptance that we were just friend and that's that.

Suddenly the bell rings.

I looked up, startled. I really do forget time when I think of Harry.

I turned to face Jasmine and she was fixing her things on her bag.

Mr. Finn left the classroom and soon so as the other students.

I stood beside Jasmine. "Hey you have plans for today?" I asked her.

"You might as well tackle your math before going somewhere Ms. Carter." she admonished me.

I smirked. "Come on Jasmine, just one?"

She turned and there was a smile playing on her lips. "What do I get from this?"

I grinned. "My treat."