||TBS/Newt Imagines||

Forever and always||Thomas X Reader||

     

            I woke up to the third round of nightmares this week in a cold sweat. My throat tightened as I suppressed a choked sob. I finally new what I had to do. My nightmares will end tonight. I took out my paper and pen and started to pour my heart out. I cried loudly, knowing nobody would wake up to hear me anyway. I poured about the mental and physical abuse from my mother, my sexual abuse from my brother, and the verbal and physical abuse of the kids at school. I poured out to say I am sorry for leaving my only friend, Thomas, to the world and told him to keep going. Even though I couldn't win this fight, he still can. I knew this wouldn't actually get to him because my mother would say it's only for her when truthfully, she is the most hated in the entire note. After I finished, I opened up my closet and took out the bag of my collected pills. Then, I sat down on my bed, twisted open the top of my bottle of Vodka and poured the pills into my mouth. Before they could melt in my mouth, I chugged the alcohol down, remembering the time Thomas and I sat on the dock and he yelled chug as I gulped down the Natural Ice beer that I had traded for cigarettes. In my mind, I could still hear him laughing as I chugged the beer. I laid back and willed myself to fall asleep before the pills kicked in. My vision soon went black and I sighed my last sigh. But then, the door opened.

                                                                         ...____________________...  

  

                 I walked in and yelled my best friend Y/N name, realizing she had slept in. I walked over, laughing at how Y/G was being sleeping ugly, and shook Y/G shoulder. When I touched Y/G, though, they were as cold as snow. 

             "Y/N...? Hey... HEY! C'MON!" that's when the pill bag slipped out of Y/G hands as well as the alcohol bottle. I looked around, realizing the dire situation, for some sort of note. I found it laying by the pen on the nightstand by the window. I read, listening to Y/G voice in my head, never imagining these things happening to Y/G. A tear fell to the page, bleeding the ink and paper, resulting to more and more. Soon enough, I was a mess, sobbing as my other friend, Dylan, who had driven me here walked in to check on me. "Y/N is DEAD!! I-I-I... oh my god."

              "I'm calling for an ambulance. Stay there. Where's Y/G mother?" Dylan said, tears also filling his eyes.

             "S-S-S-She's out with her friends and w-w-wont be back until later this w-w-week." I cried, burying my face into Y/G hand. Sooner than expected, the ambulance showed up and took Y/G to the hospital, lights flashing and sirens blaring. My heart beats like a drum as I fall to my knees and sob hysterically. Dylan crouches down and pats my back, whispering soothingly to no avail.                                                                           ......................................

               Later on that day, Y/N was pronounced dead by suicide. The funeral was a somber affair, nobody smiling but most weren't crying. They were all in shock by the turn of events. Y/G brother was arrested after a rape kit was done and his fluids were found inside of Y/G. Y/G mother was arrested for child abuse charges and could be in prison for life for manslaughter of her daughter/son. I never truly did get over his/her death but god I know I can't do this pity thing forever so I got on with my life and kept everything I did in memory of Y/F/N. I got on as an actor playing Newt in The Maze Runner as well as Dylan played Thomas in the same movie. I got a new girlfriend and we said if we have a child, we will name them in memory of Y/N. I miss him/her to death but I live on for him/her. Forever and always, my best friend.