||TBS/Newt Imagines||

If you do, I do to

        (A/N: I put the link to the song I was listening to when I was writing this, go listen to it!!! It'll say A LOT about my twisted personality, :D)

        I sat up in my bed for the fifth nightmare this week, trying to calm myself into realizing it was just a dream. My heart felt like the thump of the bass in a song and my breath quivered as tears threatened to spill over my eyelid. 

       'What the hell,' I thought to myself, knowing if I said it out loud, it would sound like more than a strangled sob than actual English. I curled into a ball in the corner of my hammock. I soon heard the sound of my secret boyfriend, Newt, walk into the area. I tried to pretend to be asleep but Newt gets there before I could position myself better.

       "Babe... why are you awake? I know you are so don't try to hide." He said as he moved toward my hammock.

       "The usual...." I chocked out before quietly sobbing into my knees. He ran over and put his arm around me, holding me.

      "Wanna talk about it?" He asked quietly.

      "Yeah.... um, so it was about you, you had gone on your rounds in the maze acting, strange. I told Minho to keep an eye on you and he just said you were in a mood. I said alright but soon after, when you were supposed to come back, Minho came through the West door carrying you in. Your leg was tw-isted in an unnatural way and you were crying. Minho at first said you had been almost attacked by a griever b-b-but he told me in the Homestead that y-y-you had jumped o-o-o-off one of the maze w-w-walls," I had to stop to sniffle and let out a sob. That's when he cut me off by kissing me. This was the first time since we had gotten together that he had kissed me, especially when someone could've seen us. The rest of the boys don't know that I am gay so we try to keep it to a small amount of affection, just enough to show we are close. I slowly got out of my original shock of "what the actual fuck" and kissed him back. When  we couldn't breath anymore, we hugged and my sobs came out, loud and raspy. That's when Newt whispered into my ear, "how did you know?" and I almost smacked him. "WHAT DO YOU MEAN HOW DO YOU KNOW?!?!"

          "I'm sorry..." He replied back and that's when I did smack him, right in the mouth, and he put his hands up but didn't move off the hammock. Then I kissed him again, rougher then last time though. When I finished, I looked at him and said "If you kill yourself, I do to. I would expect you wouldn't like that so I would expect you wouldn't do that..." 

(A/N: how was it, for not updating in so long, I think I did good! Thanks for reading guys! I needed to write, I felt so bad for abandoning you all! Hope you like it guys, I will TRY to update more often then not so that you guys  don't start to hate me...! THANKS GUYS!!!!)